Life is a long journey to go on

心血少

2011-10-06T11:14:00.003+08:00

I know I have minor headache problem, but normally this is normal.
This January I had an operation to cut off the tumour, it's really successful. I am still all fine till now, I'm being normal as usual like a human.
Recently i felt that my body really getting weak. I'm not really sure what's wrong but the headache caused problem. It's like getting serious.
Last Sunday, in the middle of night suddenly felt my head very pain, feel like want to knock my head to the wall to kill it, once in a while feel like vomit. It's been scared my bf away cause he had looking after me and no idea what's happen to me. Few times he wanted to send me to hospital but i kept quiet till i vomited then i felt getting better so continue to sleep back. Few hours after he woke up prepare for work, he wanted leave me at his home but i refused and went back my home.
Until Wednesday, just right before i wake up headache come again. I though i'll ok so i got up and ready to work. When i was driving get to feel like faint, not in the situation to concentrate so starting to scare it's dangerous. It's time 8am on the way out from Puchong. Finally i make a u-turn back to home, rest till 9am go to clinic cause i really feel something wrong. Waiting for doctor in the moment i make a call to told that i'll MC for half day. Thinking that cause got project to be done before the show. Finally doctor reached, the first in to visit. After checking, doctor couldn't find any symptom/illness but my blood pressure is LOW. I asked 'headache will be a symptom of one kind of illness', the doctor told it might be. First time i check my blood pressure and i starting to worry myself. It is time to have body check, girl.
When i told my bf, he just woke up laying on his bed sms-ing with me. When received my message straight away awake and shocked. Anyway, doctor remind to have a body check when free. I still like normal take my medicine, went to buy brunch, got back home. Ate medicines then rest in the room. Till i woke up nearly 12pm, suppose to go back work but i don't think i can so have to call back office again. Haiz!
The whole Wednesday i stayed home, it was so good to me cause i'm not boring. Played with meimei, no PC for the day.
After the day, my bf started to controlling my habits. Behave myself in foods, excuse me, i don't feel like want to have heavy food already, unless u willing to cook for me la ;P Ask me to exercise, jogging an hour every weekend with him, oh shit, feel like he want tie me up. No coffee onward, i wanted but sorry cause MILO just finished. Anyway i'll reduce coffee taking. All right, i know this boss! This is normal, ok i accept. He said to me, LBP is caused by... ... (I know lo) ... ... (haiz). This he asked his cousin at overseas who's a doctor. I want to say ... alright :( rally have to behave
For my family, i just told my mom and she said to me: Got Brands Chicken Essence don't want to drink keep so long...ok ok i will go grab and finish it. I think there have 10-14 cans ;)

This few days changing my driving attitude. Don't be excited cause i don't think will really 100% change...sshhiiihh(keep ur mouth) Anyway im not really got the fully confidence but i still understand the situation.

Friends, no worries! I'm all right. ;)

心还酸

2011-04-28T22:52:00.004+08:00

自以为已经放得下，可是原来更本是不容易的事。

昨天是我爸爸新家安碑的日子，需要去上香拜拜。心情就不以为然地和家人去了一趟。
看那已差不多盖好的房子，他安然的在里面却让我想起了他的存在已不被看见。
离开的时候，心还是不怎么好，总是觉得有点悲伤，结果眼泪却不自然的流了下来。
为了不想让家人发现，只好强忍着把自己的伤感流回心里。

你不知道几时会好
你不知道几时会发觉那已不是什么
你不知道几时会把自己的心是接受事实
更不知道几时会发现已经没事了

唯一最后一张的全家福

世事无常，珍惜现在最重要。
家人是永远亲近的人，可是不是永远一生的陪伴左右。
幸福而来珍惜当下！

New path to future plan

2011-04-11T18:51:00.002+08:00

Final already finished. My 2-year diploma officially finished. The End!
In between i face some problem that i never expected. But luckily i had try my best changing my character to turn it over. In the end, i did it. Now i don't think i have to do this again cause i'm release from there already.
Beside that, i have to thanks my lovely bf that he supported me all the way, especially when i want to give up some time. He got to understand my feeling that i went through and thanks him give me advises that make me feel better. If not him, i don't know who can i refer and understand me!
It's not easy for me to take this diploma but it's not hard as well. Not easy is because of the people i know; Not hard is because the subjects based on more practical typed. It is too bad that i couldn't do well in written. In the final period, my emotion have been effected due to my dad's suddenly leave us.
Honestly, i admitted that i didn't did well especially in written paper. Just, i got my final results stated that i failed my hotel management written paper consists of 6 subjects. I know i can score in financial maths and budgeting accounts, but it's very disappointed me that i couldn't get it well. I think just only this paper had bring my marks down.
I can't blame anyone i can't do anything, the only thing i can do is just accept it.
Anyway, however i still have to proceed to what i want to do.
Either in model career or event planner, i have to plan both together and see how things going then only i will know which prefer the better in my future.
First, i want to find a path to enter model career start with part time．In another way, i find a path to know about wedding planner that very popular career now. After that, i try to work in event planner then get to know this interesting job.

Why i choose this both but not related to my diploma that i studies, cause i don't like to stay in one place and work only. I don't like everyday repeat the same thing, sit in the office doing documents filling. That's not what i want cause it's boring, not interesting at all!
I wish i could pick the right one and success in anyone i also satisfied!
Guys, i wish i can get supported from you all! If can please give me the way! =P

2011 is not a good year

2011-04-10T21:43:00.003+08:00

Since New Year till now, there are so many thing happened up and down in between my family, my life,my healthy, my education.

Jan, i had my first operation in my life to remove the tumor in right breast. Luckily it's not critical and i'm be save. But another way, i'm not satisfied cause another tumor in opposite side exist. It couldn't be touched so just let it be. About operation i don't want have again cause it's very scary for me.

CNY this year, can say it's good cause this year we went to visited all relatives' house because have to take down relatives' names for preparation of my brother's wedding guests list. By the way, my dad seems very happy and enjoyable with us and family relatives cause he did joined every occasions. My family had a very enjoyable and happiness reunion this year.

CNY just pasted doesn't mean sad thing have to come, but it's happened.
My dad had pasted away just right after. It's very very shock and i don't even can accept it. The day before i had night class till got home already 9pm plus. I had my dinner then my dad came in and fooling with me, i don't have mood to replied him cause someone make my temper. The next day, i woke up in the morning found out that my parent's room door still closing i though maybe my dad not feeling well having a rest, so i don't care then switch on my shower heater and go to bath. After my mom finished laundry get in to her room and realized that he's already no breathing. She came to me and shouted that my dad's got something wrong so i faster got out from bathroom and run to my dad, he's laying on the bed and got some white liquids came out from his mouth. I run to my mom down stair, she's on the phone to my brother sister and i kept calm her down and i make a call to emergency line. Few mins after my uncle came and my brother came back as well. I was thinking that time my dear should be going to college so i don't know either should i call him but finally i did. We're in very emo and don't know what can do except called our closer family. Then my uncle said went out any clinic invite doctor to come over. After that my sister and brother reached home and we're all just stay beside my dad couldn't say anything. No any doctor willing to come then the ambulants reached, suggested that we have to go police station make a report cause they couldn't do anything else.
The pain that hard to understand when nothing to help ur love one. He is my dad! Beside cry seriously heart is painful till nothing to describe it. I can't accept that my dad just left, is my dad. His voice his attitude his actions not longer can hear and see anymore. I still remember if i wake him up in the morning, he will open his eyes look at me and asked "what's happen"(in cantonese), then i will shake his body till he get out from the bed. When i come back home and he's sitting on his table reading newspaper, he will look at me locked the door and turn around face him, then he will asked "where i went, now only come back"(in cantonese). But now onward, it won't happen again. I won't heard his voice, his loud cough again. I won't see he's sitting on his table or in the living room eating again. I don't even have chance again to have breakfast and dinner with him on Sunday. I don't even can hear his laughter voice again when reunion. Till now, i will still crying when i think of him. I don't have a chance to tell him that I love him!
Next, my dad had left a lots thing to be carry on by us from household to his business. It is the time for my brother to proceed my dad's business finally. The most important and difficult thing is financial problem for family and business. Of cause there's also some conflicts we face but we're still staying claim and cooperate together.
I'm worry about my mom even how i wish she can stay strong and cheerful to continue stay with us, continue enjoy the happiness with us.

Jan-Mac 2011 is my last term of diploma holder. Went through final classes till final exam and final practical. On 25th of March is the result announcement, but then it's not what i want cause i just got Honourable Pass only in between 12-24 marks. I understand it cause i didn't did well in practical and didn't gives too much efforts on it due to i don't have the mood to do it well.

So far, i have to plan out probably what i want to do in the future. And so i want to start my career as soon as possible cause i want to reduce my family spending.
Wish me luck guys!!! =)

Year End Soon

2010-12-15T16:19:00.003+08:00

Gonna suck in the exam weeks! It's week 10 and finall assessments!
Calculating failed 2 subjects in the moment, brings down my marks for diploma!
Next year, few more weeks is Term 6 coming soon! Wish hardly is not tough but i don't think so. However i wanna put lots more work on it and bring up my works together always starting my revision of three terms subjects.
Damn sad to getting my diploma!

090910, still remember it ;)~
Almost 3mths+, a million thousand thanks for the giving much to me!
I don't know what to say or what to do else just to repay back but one thing, i have to behave myself which is being violence all the way! Such a very sorry to him a lots! Anyway, he still never scold or angry me!
The other way, he treat me very well! I got no comment about it at all! He will give everything if i want under his limitation!
Eventhough, i have to concern about my family since my mom not so appreciate about me! I have to spend more time with them yet!
Unexpected that i got the right one who caring me much more than myself! I have to try to control myself to being better! As what i promised to myself!

2010 going to end very soon, recently only think wanna do something that i wish to do but not yet done. Anyway, it's not so important in my life but still manage to get it maybe! Finally i went my checked up this month and results proved that both sides got the same thing but it is not serious as what i though! However i decided to take operation will be on next year. First thing to do on the first week of new year and my first time giving out! I'm waiting, I'm worry, I'm scare, I pray hard! It will be my first experience in my life!

I got a listing out! hehe ;P
http://www.facebook.com/?sk=messages#!/note.php?note_id=478392378983

Admit it

2010-10-06T20:12:00.003+08:00

I feel great this time!
Last entries i mentioned about something happened and now it's really be true!
That time i remembered that he asked me to stay back til he finished his training and go back KL together. Since i'm already bought ticket to go back on time but i did say yes also to go back penang again. Which mean on the same time i meant to accepted. I remember the way when we going to get it's happened in penang. Thanks a lots that giving me in such a way. I felt some weird in the beginning but he did brings it up afterward and make me feel better. I think i get what i wishing for. I feel that i get respect, loving and caring from him. Even though he may not perfect at all but he will do it best in his way out.

Really thanks for his concern!
Appreciated his understanding!
Appreciated his respecting!
Thanks for his loving and caring!
I did meant it to him!

When i spinning my mind to him i just couldn't stop it, or else i have to get something to do! ;) I feel that's great ever i have from him! I won't take it in the far future but i mean it in the moment right now.
Thanks dear! ~miss~

The end of ~P~

2010-09-08T23:52:00.003+08:00

I'm stuck now cause feel like not going back yet. Ticket already bought on 14th flight, just right after two days finish training. BUT there's something happened change my mind wanted to stay longer. I don't know...anyway still have to go back also.
It's happen due to outsider already realized that and keep mention it, til i even have to admit it's happen. I pretend to not do any move but he also the same. I have to take the first move again this time. If not i will keep thinking and thinking til my patient limit comes. I told myself want to have this kind of friend but it's turns to over of it. Do i really have to admit and accept he's younger than me...
Now, i'm counting day not because wanna go back soon, is because how many days left here! Just since yesterday he mentioned something that let me feel there's something going to change between us but nothing prove with it.
I'm suffer.......
I'm scare.......
I'm thinking here and there.......

Life is filling up

2010-09-06T17:00:00.003+08:00

Last week to going on yet then i can leaving such a boring place and go back to my home sweet home and *heaven*. My friend is waiting me out there and going to have another gathering again. Mommy will going to take me from the airport then make a surprise to my dearly brother Terry Foo 21th Birthday on the same day im going back. I'm still stuck in my mind about the present to my dearest SooHui as birthday gift. I said will buy a batik to her but even myself also haven get one yet so even for her. Now, have to think about some other gift prepare to her already. If not i have to break the promises to her, she know i won't do that cruel thing to her. ~idea idea~
I'm going to suffer about my luggage cause only one with two bags, how to stuck in all the stuffs that can put it in the garbarge. How ever still have to do it....~haiz~
Last Week, went twice to Sunset Bar beside parkroyal due to Yenny' birthday. MeiYann had a such a hug surprise celebration on Saturday while we had invited to trainee fallware party at Josephine's house. Been prepared a watermelon as a cake with candle on it and give it to her. But then really can't imagine that she can be so crazy. She grab the watermelon with her hand and put it on people's face except me didn't kena of cause. Next i'm going to hide a side and prepare the real cake for her. But couldn't give her cause she was really enjoying with the watermelon til Rachel took it away. She was so scare that i will foolish her again while she preparing to blow the candle. Once she blow the candle, Bryan and Loren took watermelon hiding behind her and put it on her head. Really can't imagine that's so crazy happened there. Next is gaming session that prepared by Truma such a damn stupid game, but i just joined the first section then i escaped from there. Since XoongHua will going to pass by there so i did it successful. MeiYan really had a such happier crazy and memorial birthday celebration this year. Must be an unforgetable to her! After all, me and Xoonghua hanging at mamak and chatting then comes up a call to go Sunset bar again. So did we went again til 2am this time, the next day we both really like collapse again. Tired like hell, slept straight after worked and til almost late at night only woke up. If he didn't call me up i think i won't wake up....haha
Last week to spend here so will take time and enjoy it til the end & going back happily. Wait for me Terry Foo Jasmine Mommy and all my dearest and lovely family! ;)

~P~

2010-08-31T11:08:00.003+08:00

It's been a quiet of long time never ever blog new entry. Just cause of time killing me a lots. Since last time i was collapse and stand up again, it's gave me a lots inspire. No matter how and what happen i still have to admit it all the way.
Now move to penang quiet a period time already, from the beginning til now it's going better. Thanks god! First week i forced to went through all alone in the house. Second week, knew some of them from DC and get to mix with them. Til i knew XoongHua, we're became closer. Offs, movies, shopping together every week, almost everyday went out dinner and explore penang street again and again. Just want to say we're like half of penang people, almost every movies we also watched but sad for me no Step Up 3D available in Penang. Since i knew Bryan til all of them, just wanted to say only XoongHua will remember me cause we have the same consensus. But what people look through of us just not a right.
After i changed to being operator, colleagues there mentioned to me that Bryan is my bf, i was kept laughing. If i got this such bf i better live all alone. After that, Vincent they all even my housemates though i'm goes to XoongHua, can people stop a mind about a girl and guy together doesn't really mean is a couple. It's just two of them can really mix up and being a good friends. What we did is close the eyes to them and being what we are. Anyway, i'm glad to know XoongHua here, make my life in penang is not that bad.
Two weeks more, i will be going back my home sweet home very soon. Then next is family trip to PD. Purposely go back early just cause the trip. ~Cheers~

Korean Wave

2010-05-30T11:29:00.002+08:00

I like the song
I love her
I supported her all the way

Awaiting

2010-05-23T16:32:00.002+08:00

I don't expect so much about college, everything go through well to not affected my study again til the end of final, i'll be happy then. Let's not to focus on this again.
I'm now in the mood of look forward to my birthday party on next month. Everything is in the progressing by my mom since i got no time to handle it. Catering found and attending list is more than 100 including my big family members. I'm just wondering what will i get on the day...presents? wishes? or fun? just cherish on it! All be closed friends did invited as dearest Jasmine, Audrey and Terry; all SEGi members; primary classmates; secondary schoolmates; of cause Joey & KeanSeng; and last but not least some others i knew besides (great to knew them and it's time to meet them as well)! There is another i'm thinking of it, recently college mates. I can't say is my best friends but also not close to them, don't know should i invite them as well. If did, what they will think of it. I don't know either they will pay respect to me or not?!! Maybe lastly only know it just not to take it so serious...hehe
Actually i did glad to received gifts from but i don't want those usefulness thing such like candles, lamp or other just place for nice decoration. If u wanna give me this then i prefer u just pack a angpow for me better. Otherwise, i suggest some fashionable thing for me is a best choice. If do not suffer so much as i said just now angpow straight for me to buy whatever i want...ahhahahahah ;P
Expecting some surprise on my 21th!!!!!! ~Cheers~

Collapse

2010-05-11T23:25:00.004+08:00

There's been a few months i never update. I wanted to said there is the most critical happened that i ever had in my life. I never ever knew that i'll faced this kind of problem til i really got lose my mind. Now think back of it i'll shocked of it.
This is happened in Term 4 just, it was really make me so down til i ever doubt myself have mental illness. I realized myself that cranky a lots of thing, no appetite even force myself to focus on thing, some time may not attention in class. Til the day i asked my mom some of questions and finally she did noticed. I spoke out my suffering to her and my dad get to noticed on me as well. He was went to my college looked for my lecturer and settled down my case with them. Finally it's another changed to me. Thanks and love my dad, ever know his care and protective to me even he's rarely talk with me.
There is a another new beginning. I don't expect there will be better but i wish to be good in another last year to me til finish diploma and graduate.
Besides, I'm worry about my dearest Jasmine. She's turn to facing some trouble in her family. I don't know what can i help but at least i do always give her supportive and advices. If i do help for anything i will be there always! Lastly i wish there will have a happy ending more than u give up urself. Try hard & stay strong dear!

Genting experience

2010-01-24T13:08:00.006+08:00

I was been in genting already three weeks ago. In the moment i doesn't feel like to stay here and wanted to go back home as soon as possible. First, is the hostel environment and second is the working location. As my advice, visit genting for entertain may sounds better than being staff in genting. Everyday repeat the same working position even after work there have no such any entertain, just stay in room for nothing. Luckily mommy had bought my laptop to me when she came with her family for fun. Even how say it is i still need to survive for 2 mths more in this situation. It is really expected unexpected, one word>suck! Regret of it!
Beside that, there had some memories for me too. Within three weeks, some of friend might came to meet me here. First of cause is mommy. Even she came with family but i still can join them to theme park enjoy the fun. The only experience i did again must "thanks" to WF cause the haunted adventure. Went in second time and same thing happened to me again. I'm really dare myself NO THIRD TIME OR MORE. After that, should join them for dinner but then i didn't just cause the genting rules of staff. SAD! After dinner, met mommy again take my thing and chit chat a while at Starbucks since everywhere also closed. After the day only i got something to do, online>watching movie...!
Next is Wilson as my friends called him as BMW guy cause he drove BMW. He's rich as i know. I knew him through my secondary friend, same college but different department. He came all the way here just to visit me and also with his purpose capture some photos but the weather is not nice so. Went coffee beans have a drink then went to his car take something that he brought to me since he knew that i'm acclimatized in genting. Cause of raining and weather very cool so stayed in the car for an hour i guess, and make me feel comfortable like wanted fall a sleep. Some more wanted to going home right now. After that we went to dinner at Vietnam house in FW. Finally he sent me back and he also leave on that night.
Lastly it was just happened. I'm really very happy! A guy i knew in the club came to genting with his friends and meet me as well. I don't think that second time meet him will be in genting. Once a while they're went casino of cause i know they will. After i finished work change my cloth and then meet them. I did still recognize him and gave a hug to each other. Now only i realized that he's quiet tall plus i'm not wearing high-heeled shoes only around his ears level. Firstly wanted to go Patio bar in FW but fulled so went to Cloud 9. Surprisingly he met a no longer meet cousin sister as a promoter there. We drink, we chat, we enjoy! It is the day that i never be so happy since i went genting once in a while. Really thanks him so much! He sent me back to my hostel, we did hug again and i feel really best time to with him again. After that he was leaving back to klang. I slept til 9am awake and felt a bit headache maybe cause i'm drunk a bit much, then fall sleep again til 11am alarm snoozed and woke up. Luckily feel better. Quiet a nice enjoyable night and memorable in my mind! ~Peace~ ;)

Year End of 2009 to New Year 2010

2010-01-02T21:50:00.003+08:00

December is a celebration of the year cause there have Christmas & New Year which peoples celebrate every year. Every year was the same of me stayed at home with family but this year will be my first time.
Christmas Eve had dinner at mommy's house with friends and i was overnight at her house cause will be having a long night with them. Don't know what's mommy think of suddenly tell me wanna go clubbing. I didn't have any make up and just a simple me on that night. Finally decided really wanted to go club so i just borrow make up from mommy and did simple make up enough. Since everywhere was crowded hard to decide which club to go but finally one of them have VIP place at Phuture then we just went there. I wanted to say there was my lucky night. It's normal that meet some guy there but u won't think there will have a contact with u after. Anyway i did and only have a hour more to talked with him. After club went supper, 5am only reached back home. My friend and mommy was definitely drunk and high enough so just quickly and simply cleaning then go sleep. After i had done everything i saw both of them laying on the bed and chit chat. When i goes to them and change topic to me about the guy came to me in the club. All the words they gave me was suggest me to go to him cause they think this guy is really better than him all the way. What i did was silent and no comment cause no body know what will happen after, maybe we have the chance or maybe not. 6am only went to sleep until 12pm. But i'm not. Between the time i woke up around 9am suddenly and hard to fall sleep again cause my mind keep comes up about him（a guy that recently found me back to him and make me suffer in my life). Anyway i kept controlled myself get back to sleep as i can. After 12pm, i woke up bath again then borrow mommy's laptop online. The guy really added me in msn but he's not longer online then i found out his FB. After the day, we'd chat til we exchange contact number and chat again almost everyday. Starting to know him well.
New Year was coming. I don't think to go anywhere else as usual cause lazy to go places that fulfill with peoples all around. Finally went out with my primary schoolmates at Hot Piper, Pyramid. Luckily went in cafe on time if not we'll get snow from people on us. In the same time i didn't forget to wish my friends which not with me of cause included him. This New Year was my very first and happy celebration in my life. He message me in the late at night and chat again til i fall slept. He was asked me about my personal life but he didn't even believe that i never have bf before. And he did told me about his without i ask for it. From here i can know that he may be trusted as a good guy that met in the club. Maybe what he said was a lie but i don't think so cause i can knew it in our conversation. So lucky i had knew a friend in the club.
This relationship may be longer or not, i just very happy that knew him no matter what will happen in the next. Of cause if there have chance i may also feel it's satisfaction and glad to met him.
Wishing in the new year 2010 i may have a great and joyful life and to my dearest family & friends too.
After tomorrow i have to go for industrial training for three months in Genting. Now my feeling is sad that have to stay away from my home and can't contact with my friends. I'm worry about the situation there how will gonna be. Anyway is time to be admit it no matter how is there. Just pray for everything go well and faster pass three months after come back and continue what i wish to do. Good luck to all! Cheers... & Happy Birthday to my lovely older brother today!

Disappointed again

2009-12-21T21:46:00.003+08:00

想哭不是因为你的残酷，生气不是你对我无情，而是因为你对我的了解而产生的误会。不明白为什么再次让我失望，难道我不应该做这样的决定或者就不应该再对你有一丝妄想。
I don't understand why so secret and wanted to keep himself. What's a thing that cannot let peoples know? What's that too personal?
First of all, u really don't understand me. I never never mean to angry, sad or argue with u but u really disappointed me for the second time again. I trust that what u said was real but doesn't mean that i'll give myself a hope or waiting for u again. BUT u had make me disappointed again and again. U hate people cheated but u did it to me and don't even want to explain anything some more though i'm vexatious to u. Am i so childish to u?!! Use ur brain and think la i never angry about what u did le now u think i'll angry because of that and annoying u ah. I'm still worry that i'm disturbing u. Means i'm really annoying u la. If u keep this in mind i dare u'll regret what u did to me! I don't wish u come to me i wanted u to know what u did today is just u're foolish. As i told u, u never understand me as well!
What i want u to know, u make me disappointed just because u don't understand me and make a wrong point of view. I'm definitely disappointed about what u had did. And i didn't even angry about any decision u make. Otherwise, i'll respect what ever u do!

I hate waiting

2009-12-12T19:43:00.004+08:00

He told everything to me so sudden and i was so surprised. Sudden cannot digest that happened. I'm happy that cause never imagine this really happened. He is so direct and honest to tell me all the thing. Even i'm so shouted and lost in mind but it's a good thing. He tried to get me understand and trust him. He had make me feel reliable. I think i may not make a wrong decision. Even how many question i'm suffer and confuse, he may knew it and still give me way out from that. I think i should not think to much and get trouble to myself. But there have one way i want to figure out to avoid myself to lost confidence. I think i know what i am doing．And i'm really hate waiting that cause me keep thinking problem.
Wish there is a happy ending. God bless...
I guess my friend may don't know what happen but they would guess what is about right now...I promise will be inform lately! Stay tune!

Surprising

2009-12-09T21:33:00.003+08:00

First time had make someone feel touched....
But i'm a bit surprise how come he suddenly called me and asked and talked so many thing...in the whole night never stop
or what i guess is going to be true right now....
Seems like i have chance.....
True or not wait til the day come...
"put so many wished just make disappointed"
Chill.....

An answer that i wish to know for long time ago

2009-11-06T15:54:00.005+08:00

My life is keep up and down. When is up because of my lovely 'mommy', 'brother' and my lovely best friends join together; when is down because of college life.
I had successful keep my mouth closed in sufficient time. Means i didn't talk much among them. By the time also make me feel boring. Looking here and there, listen what they talk, look at what they do. Some time may think they quiet childish but no matter how they're still younger, may different minded. For me is nothing i don't mind actually! I got no comment whatever there, keep talking less, make it's none of my business. Whatever i did just wish to avoid conflict. I think this is the way.
Actually i may wish to know what they would like to comment among us, how they feel, what they like or dislike, which character they feel troublesome. I mostly prefer to tell everything honesty rather than keep it in heart never let the people know.
Few of them may no problem with me, i think is quiet good but some is still the same character. Maybe it's their attitude that i doesn't like it. I would like to comment to them but just because i think if i say it out may make an enemy after, so better that i keep it silent!
Beside that, they maybe doesn't like my character also. I know it actually just they didn't tell maybe scare i hate them or else. But i can honesty say it here that i don't mind if u really tell me truth even i dislike but i'll appreciate it. I can't promise that i will change but i can try my best to change my attitude with u. I don't dare they know this but i just want to say what i want they know actually and what i feel. No matter how i still wishing they will know this.
Actually i got one question: Do you feel i'm very hard to communicate or anything about me that u may feel problem there? I'm really like to know the answer!!!

The true of me

2009-10-21T21:09:00.003+08:00

Recently seen few of my friends had partner already, i'm still alone．In a good way still single and available. As my friend said, i'm too choosy and high demand so....haha i guess so but what to do! I just can say i'm very hard to convince or expect too much. This is me. That's what my lecturer said i'm perfectionist. I agreed! Undeniably，i'm also like other single lady expect for a guy beside to support/love them. But no matter how it's not that easy for me. I never do something that i don't have confidence on it so better i'll be the passive.
I knew a senior who same age but different level. Since last week we had officially met, i felt something going changed. And just few days ago, he told that he like me. I got it but nothing to comment cause i had nothing in my mind to think about it so never reply(sorry for that). It's still new i have no comment about him yet. Anyway, i couldn't think so far. Seriously i know my problem and i had told my best friend too so she might knew my problem as well. I don't dare myself to do any action in relationship just cause one reason but it's no big deal! It's take time for me to digest.

Badly Emo

2009-10-03T15:37:00.002+08:00

Yesterday night went to a classmate's house dinner cause it's her birthday and also celebrating mooncake festival but not purposely celebrate her birthday anyway. It's not that bad as my mind cause only me there among of classmates. First time met her mother and she's looked younger and pretty. It is not much peoples at her house but kids. Her mother asked us to bring the kids walked to the street with bringing tanglung. Since how many years ago never have this kind of things happened with my family. Still remember the last time is before shifted to puchong. Actually i most likely the situation cause all family join together having fun and joke moment. It is very happiness but now no more already maybe most the kids already grows up and have personal life. I stayed there until 11pm then i went back home. I used the way LDP from damansara to puchong, drove around 100km/m cutting lane some more. The most dangerous thing i did, i used to cut a few cars in S lane at flyover motorola there. I have no comments about what i'd did. This is the way to stop suffering and thinking, i'm enjoy it! That's all!
Today is mooncake festival, my mom have prepare for tonight only my own family. A simple reunion! I had planed to go Jasmine's house to swim but my 'queen of house' suddenly asked me fetched her go out so what i can do is spoiled my plan. I know i had said many times ago to Jasmine wanna swimming but never achieved. Damn angry! Every time i think wanna jump to a pool and stay inside the water! Aaaaaahhhhhhhhh...kill me better

My narrow minded

2009-09-22T22:14:00.006+08:00

Term 2 just finished, it was a bad memories for me i guess. As i said it doesn't like what i expected and also most different as my lovely Segi friends. What i tried to say is about my group mates in my new life on Taylor's college. This term more sucks. I was in troubles and also had conflict with them, already argued with them for twice. Maybe i'm ego or hard to convince. Some time i might think that they're very selfish, don't care about people feeling. I was in a bad situation in the whole term especially while doing group assignments, no one will give a cooperate team work to do a thing. When ask no ending with answers then all disappear, never have a official meeting or discussion. Until the last min only want to worry confuse and settle thing up, some more done with one or two person the others just can relax. I wonder what is team work to be learn??!!! Sucks like hell! It was make me crazy until cannot breathe, don't know how many times i cried sad and emo in the moments. I don't be in the nightmare again! I want to forget the things and also wish next term can be better but i guess it's won't! Fine, just to accept!
I was glad that i have audrey, jasmine, and some others that i knew in segi college until now! Because only they will appreciate and care about people, and they're officially human being in the world. :-P I still can join have fun with them all the time, no matter what things we still in the laughing moment! I love them more than once and also my best friends forever ever! After term final exam, i got a day to rest cause fall sick old illness in the last day of exam. In the saturday night went to watched movie>laughing goh with mommy and brother. Sunday is my lovely grandfather birthday so family have a reunion dinner even he is pasted away just one year. Monday which mean yesterday went for one day trip at ipoh, perak can be say was organized by my mother's family. It's a bit boring but still good and happiness. First thing happened in the morning while we watch drama. My cousin bought tvb drama asked the driver to open it, got two screen in front and center part kept at the top. My brother asked my uncle who seat under the screen on center part to pull the screen out but had no idea to open. Actually it's so high tech cause auto shift down. ;) A waterfall which can seen from highway as first station in the morning . Of cause i had took photos in the time. There don't have convenience toilet facilities so cannot change cloths so just pull up the pants and took out shoes then stepped in the water. The water is so cool but feel good. There have a strong winds from the fall and make me feel comfortable. Just one hour time after continue the journey to go ipoh. Went to lunch then visit kellies castle but the olders don't want to enter the castle so had no choice never enter and visit the castle, only can took some photos from outside. Photos available http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=123594&id=586025778. I told myself i'll go there again. Then went to buy Ipoh native, ended the trip after dinner at Rawang. Back home almost 10pm, take bath then fall asleep on my sister's bed cause sister went to genting already.
The next day mean today morning, i woke up around 11.30am and never see my mom. Asked my brother only knew she went genting as well with aunt. So angry that she didn't asked me even let me know. This is what she always did to me. If got driver then kick me out, don't even ask me want follow or not. Next time i go myself no need to inform her as well. The whole day i stayed home alone, brother went out in the afternoon as well. I packed KFC from outside and back home watched drama. All alone at home again! Haiz...too bad!

The Final end of Term 2

2009-08-25T20:58:00.003+08:00

My mom, sister and brothers went to Taiwan for almost 2 weeks on my second day break. I had to stay alone at home and doing all the house work myself. The worst thing is i need to wash my daddy's working cloth everyday until my fingers skin was peel off. :'( Beside that, of cause i did what wad Audrey dare me > went out from house. I kept goes out with my friends in day until night back home and still need to do some assignments la. I dare myself to stay at home the whole day was on weekend. I never went anywhere until my dad come back and Sunday had a wedding dinner had to replace my mom. Seriously and honesty i stayed home for the whole day (Jasmine can be my witness cause i online with her all day long) but also hate the feeling being alone at home with no body. The second week of my family vacation, started continue my term back to college again. The most busier week cause i rush between home and college non stop. After home in the early morning then college with classes assignments in the day and night at home again. I can't imagined that how tired am i and also as a maid/housewife. Whatever la just tired to described all the things. This is the first time for me. At the same week in college also had replacement classes and mid term assessment. It was no time for me to rest properly in the whole week. Some more promised my friends went to redbox on Wed. U see how can i make this thing on. I also can't even imagined i did this all things but seriously i'm very very tired. On the Friday night went to airport met my family finally i almost want to cried already since i saw my mom and hugged her tightly cause i'm very miss her so much for two weeks time. Finally they came back and my sister had take back her job on that night so i starting to rest. Beside that, i can't acceptable that five peoples go there and came back with 4 boxes and 7 or 8 travel bags no wonder sister asked to use to cars and luckily it's big cars. If not don't know how to take it back. Of cause i got some gifts from them also. Two coats > one is bought by my closeness brother but thanks my brother;
earrings, hair stick use to stick on hair avoid it to drop down, pig coin box(sister in law bought wan)
quarter long pants

My sister bought two cat perfumes very cute and nice but i can use also...haha :-P

And the other a lots stuff they bought i can't even remember what's that, just know that 4 boxes is biscuits, tea leaves and some lightly gift to family relatives. I guess if they stay longer a bit must bring back with the whole taiwan already. ==" Anyway just welcome they're back home and happy my brothers sister here to let me bully again but most of time they bully me first anyway. Just nice!!!

"Guarantine" week = Assessment week

2009-08-10T20:14:00.005+08:00

Wednesday went to watched movie "The Proposal" with 4 girls of my group mates after class. Had lunch at Popeye, we talked and laugh a lots for one hour there. 2pm went to cinema entering to the show. A quiet good moment with them. Remember it. I just know the movie is damn freaking funny, make me laugh all the time. I dare my brother to buy the dvd and watch again.
Friday, My family suppose go Taiwan trip for 11 days but they postpone the trip cause flied canceled cause taufan at Taiwan. At the same day, my college announced to self quarantine only for group 1-3 cause one classmate already kena H1N1 in hospital. I felt so happy cause after morning class can go home. But then i went to pyramid had lunch with two of my group mates. I saw Joey and Carmen were playing ice skate but Joey never realized i was standing there even I'd message him. We hang around in pyramid after lunch then only we leave. I'm quiet happy cause one whole week no need go to class but it's freedom classes of the week. Nvm, i can plan my break with anything i want to do without my family here. Haha...guarantee i will hang out all the time. (My darling dare me i know:-P)
I was getting flu on last wed cause careless didn't cover blanket to sleep at night. Until Saturday mommy forced me went to clinic and the doctor asked to quarantine myself. Sadness i didn't kena H1N1 le, but i still went out with mommy and aunty, then went to relative's dinner at night with my mom also. Haha...but after took the medicine already felt better. The sadness is got some spittle cause the medicine so the next day i didn't finish the medicine.
Sunday, just like normal went to breakfast with family then i came back home to do house work, cleaning roomS, make arrangement of my notes those stuff, then online FB-ing. Dinner with family again and went to father's relative to gave "red bom"(in chinese). Back home FB again then sleep quiet early cause don't want be lazy.
Today, planed to online discussion with group mates. A messy confusing conversation with them. Finally settled a part of it only. I surrender and end up the conversation since everyone wanna left. I went out lunch and Tesco to buy some stuffs with my mom before she leave. Now only i realized didn't buy coffee for my stock. Haiz...poor thing. Nvm i will get money from dad and buy myself after hehe! Already pasted first day break, i wish i can use the time to finish the assignments (wish they give some team work la) and do revision cause mid term assessment already postpone. By the way of cause use the time to hang around with my lovely friend to have fun. Already a plan to sing k on Friday soon! Wanna go find my darling again. Do something that without family permission....haha!!! Have Fun!

Fun Time

2009-07-24T20:36:00.003+08:00

Since been few weeks i guess didn't touch up my blog already and now i want to begin from last weekend. Saturday was something happened. It had been a traditional way to get to know a relationship. How to say...my lovely friend Jasmine and her husband met me went to redbox cause wanna introduce his friend who just broke a relationship to me. Such like a stupid thing right but some how it was happened to me. We were went in on time as reservation but then i accompany Jasmine went to ATM. We went in the room have a seat near the door and the guys seating inside. A technician are there cause the mics is not working. First to comes up is Jasmine's husband going to sing first with Michael Jackson's classical songs. Yet she did even intro him to me. Follow up is Jasmine and me turn to sing our songs then is those guys turn comes up with some drama soundtracks. It was make me funny is they choose those songs but just know only some, chorus of the song. By the way, i know those songs as well so going to help them up. The problem is i sing the song and the guys there just comes up with some words. Properly is me sing a lots i guess. I don't know what's going wrong but i can felt is they were shy i guess or maybe uncomfortable have a new people among them. (suppose i'm going to be the situation right) I just wonder. I leave earlier, two hours in there cause my sister met me to go watch movie and shopping. I chatted with Jasmine after the day, the guy want my email address of cause i allowed. He added me in msn but didn't message me anything then once a while he's off.
Tuesday is another lovely friend SooHui's birthday, we planned to go steamboat dinner celebrated. I went to tasty pot first with Miko, James and Calson cause hungry already, then TsiEn and Calvin came but they both not eating. Jasmine came late cause need to wait for birthday girl. I think she worked that day. Jasmine was talked with me regarding the guy again. I told that we don't even chat yet.She told me that actually the two guys always need her husband help in relationship, another guy also girl chase him wan. The first thing comes up in my mind is how could this be?!! (If he have feel on me then i must be action la)Sadness! Anyway, just be friend la! Since at there 8 peoples but TsiEn and Calvin leave early again. I'm not in the mood to had steamboat time cause my gums feeling pain so cannot enjoy eating. Almost 10pm the next day still have early morning class so i took cake out. The fan was very strong wind. While i light candles, it keep blow by the wind so we need to use hand cover the candles until we sang finish birthday song and then SooHui blow the candles. Haha... Of cause last but not least photo session again. The cake i bought is Blueberry Yogurt Cake, very tasty and delicious. (Next time try the Raspberry yogurt) Everyone enjoy it. I love it. Every time i hang with them, i will feel very very happy cause only they know each other and having fun together. Happy moment always all around us. But now a day sadness cause Audrey no time to join us again. If not should be fun until crazy. Next is either gathering or jasmine's birthday i guess if not mistaken. Hahahhaahahha :-P
I went back home is before 11pm, i online with my laptop then went to bath, changed cloths and check up my belongings. While i study for next class notes suddenly pop up a message, was him. We chatted a while then he leave first already 12am. I was still study til 12.30am i think then sleep. It was a good nite i guess. Hehe ;)

Garden <> Full House

2009-07-02T23:01:00.003+08:00

Covey met me about to dinner at Garden 1U to replace my birthday celebration. She mentioned that her bf meet his friends at the same time to dinner actually is mean LaiKuan, FongGeen & KahWah. I really didn't know will be that before i saw them. She's such a good friend to have, willing to make a small surprising arrangement. Even my birthday pasted a week ago but still have a cake for me. Thank you so much, Covey for all of this with the gift and others to celebrated. I won't talk much about it cause i want to focus on the restaurant. Garden is similar to Full House at NZX. I just went Full House yesterday cause sister-in-law treated for my mom's birthday. Both is called Lifestyle Store and Cafe with same theme and style, and foods as well. The interior was looked like a garden, have the natural and garden atmosphere, full with flowers and grasses. Some different is the menu book; Full House's menu is comic-menu between Garden's menu is some flowers description in it. Foods they served is different also, is the way they cooked and decorated. And the other thing is Full House had selling some small cute stuffs and fashion but Garden did not. In contrast, Full House is bigger and creative than Garden. For me, i think i would like Full House better cause everything is nice and better a bit than Garden but Garden is not that bad also.
Finally, thanks again for all of u! And had a nice dinner at Garden.

20th birthday 2009

2009-06-28T11:25:00.004+08:00

Since went out continuous three days straight on last week, sat- mon also stayed home cause mom already started annoyed me. Tuesday is my day. Before the day though nothing to celebrated then think to ask few of my best friends go shabu-shabu for dinner. I haven called yet already James called me to go celebrate at the place i wonder to go again>Look Out Point. I'm so happy that though will having a nice and reasonable price of western food there. Jasmine with husband, Miko, SooHui, Nicholas, Yong and James, even just 8 peoples but it's enough already for me. They asked for time from me so make it on 7-7.30pm but then on that day. I got really mad cause james again make the thing happen between his sister cause car problem, so i went to jasmine's house. By the time Miko only called me cause she still at home cause not with soohui then i mad again didn't call me early. After that i followed jasmine's car and went to soohui's house waiting for them. I think got waited for half an hour then they reached so we departed from soohui's house to Look Out Point. Fortunately, the distance between not far away only took 15 mins can reach. On the way, nicholas, me, Jasmine with her husband talked about the uncle cause he always missed out the back of us. I tried to clam down myself from beginning and not to talked so much until reached restaurant. I though we having at western restaurant but reality make me cruel. They were planned to dinner at Gasoline Look Out Point so i got no idea and did nothing went in to Gasoline. It's weekday so might not crowded peoples some more can choose places to seat. 8 peoples ordered 9 main courses, a side dishes and 8 drinks if I'm not mistaken. Jasmine and me not even feel full after main course so the side dishes is ours. Almost food was finished suddenly drizzle but the places we seat have canopy, just a few mins then stopped already. Finally comes up the main moment. The cake was taken out with candle lit, put on the table and taking photos. I was thinking the candle keep lit but continues melted until half soon then no need to eat lo. He though camera is video need to take so long time to capture few photos!!! Finally i can blow and cut the cake but few candle melted on the cake had to take it out, definitely spoiled the cake. Asked the waiters take some plate but they took some polystyrene boxes had small cockroach, so might used tissues. The tower had no light but i still wish to go up there but they're disagree to go up the tower. Anyway, I get all of them to take photo with me include married couple :-P Of cause with my girls as well. The end, my celebration was just like this simple and nothing special. That's all! I will be sharing my album at the bottom. Wish to enjoy. Actually all the way, i'm felt unhappy cause my dear Audrey can't join us that day, so cannot see her all the time! Very very miss Audrey and wanted to see her soon! Muakz...

Expect

2009-06-13T18:20:00.003+08:00

June is expecting month, suppose is meaningful cause is month of my birthday. Every year of the same thing, i always hope for something different than previous. But every year is just the same i think. Normally my friends will celebrate with me either dinner or lunch, that's it. It's just a normal and simple dining with them of cause it was happy and fun as well. Actually i expect gift but of cause not photo frame or decoration or something useless la, something that i want and have it like necklace, earrings, cloths or cosmetics and some other stuffs. Mostly i wish to have sunglasses, bag, purse since i look for it quiet long time but still haven get one of it cause maybe I'm too choosy and high tasted. Haha...
This year i guess they maybe will celebrate with me again. Anyway, i mostly expect for a happier and fun moment with them than last year. Since we all separated already seldom to meet again I'm very miss them so much. By the way, of cause i wish to have a gift as well. This maybe will or not to come true but I'm really highly expected! Hey friends, if you're reading my blog now i think u know what to do la, right! Hehe...i don't care what gift u get for me at least it is useful for me or i like it. If u simply get a gift for me then i better u don't buy anything just treat me something that's all. haha... This year birthday quiet happy cause I'm just start holiday for term break. I can go anywhere i want...Freedom! Thanks god i have a good time to my celebration...haha :-P
See ya, all my best friends!

Assignment period

2009-06-10T17:25:00.003+08:00

Since last two weeks already started rushing assignment to pass up. Normally after class will hang in library to do assignment with group mates. It is quiet boring cause just facing to laptop and doing research and power point slides. I will normally open musics to play while every time i use my laptop(actually not mine just borrow my brother's to use :-P). It's not that boring then. Yesterday we hang in library to doing the last assignment and we did something crazy in library. Derrick bought two pepper shaker give to arthy and Angeline cause they are using public transportation to come and leave college. They are wonder how is the taste of it so derrick took one and try to spray it beside the wall on the floor, but it's not work cause cannot press the thing. While he is still trying with it, i took another one to try and it is worked. They all is wonder what is going on and the two guys looked at me. The smell is very strong pepper taste and cannot breathe. I faster get up and leave the room to another friend's room then the others can smell the odor and also leave and close the door. The other students of next room looking of us wonder to know what is going wrong with us but they can smell the odor i guess. After few mins we going back the room and continue our works, but derrick was really missing and two of them were came back from toilet. Ha ha ha ha......not longer time we are preparing to leave for another class will start soon then only derrick appear. I think this case only derrick, juharn, angeline, kc, arthy and me knew it. Hehe...It's very bad thing but we did it! :-P

Previous Memorable

2009-05-12T20:24:00.011+08:00

I just look back the video of gathering at Jasmine's house. Every time i watch it again it is very funny and happy because james's action and also the moment we're laughing. Really funny til i can't forget about it! I think it is good to others that let us remember the moment. I hopefully in the future we'll keep having a happy moment again and again. Hehe.... :-P

Let's talk about my college now and the friends as well. I'm very very happy to know Yulia, Derrick and Angeline. Last day we had our assignment period time at Yulia's House. We used to having fun there but except me cause they're just doing other stuff and playing around. I was keep doing the power point. Anyway, it's ok for me because better than wasting time and get to sleep at Yulia's bed later. I want to talk about them. They use my camera captured photos, talking video. I don't even know what they're doing there, never bother about them just continue my work. OMG, after few days ago i uploaded those photos in computer only i realized the things. Crazy la wei...But it do make me laugh all the way. Ok now let me upload some of it to sharing here. Yulia, Derrick and Angeline, please don't blame me whatever i did in my blog ok! Thanks! Emm...i want to say that I'm very happy by the moment and thanks to them. I getting closer and closer with u all by now. And i really appreciated all of it! Wish we would be good friends and continue our happiest and funny moment again! Haha...

Recents

2009-04-26T21:39:00.002+08:00

Already three weeks didn't touch up my blog, I'm just take some time to update now! I was three weeks in my college life again. And now it's another feeling in college than before. Most of them is look younger than me, some peoples may also think I'm Korean!! The first three days in orientation just knew three little girls, i was look mature a bit than them. Three of them have different character, but still have one(Elaine) is quiet communicated/closer with me cause she's not that childish than other two. We are separated to different group for classes but then i was seldom to met the two childish girl but i was just closer with Elaine for lunch break together. Beside that, i was felt quiet and boring with my group mates as well. They most are christian just only three peoples are Chinese, but then i was no topic with them. Suddenly feel like wanna change group of cause not now cause was three weeks already have some group assignment started to do. I just try my best to join with them until the end of semester i would properly think about it again. Everything is just ok with me now just the peoples i haven match up with them yet, by the moment just feel good with Elaine maybe we're the parent to each other. Ha ha...nice to meet her!
Today is Audrey's Birthday! Before that wanna make a celebration dinner with her but since she is busy than me cause her assignments just come none stop. Actually Kooi Lee with me have thing that bought before the week to her already so may wish her like it but then is not give her yet since Kooi Lee no time. Sorry Audrey but we'll give it to you soon after she come back and meet you again. May wish you Happy Birthday again and good luck! Most of all really want to take good care of yourself.
Move away of my study, let's talk about my life. Last week Kacuak had intro me to attend a make up workshop being a model for her friends. I was happy with the result on the day. While i post up my photos friends might think I'm getting marry. Ha ha...just a fool friends! Please la...I'm not involve in any real relationship yet how come to marry la...use your brain la! :-P Before that, actually would have a model shooting with Kacuak but my time was not allow cause i was in classes. Finally he was went out of country already so may wait next time he come back again only take it again. I would love to wait for it again! I'm very happy that he took me as first chosen to him! he he...
Last few days ago, i received a reply email that i send for part time jobs. I'm happy that first time have reply for jobs even finally not chosen for employee. Beside that also have a company reply that wish to recruit me as model but i need to have a portfolio cost RM300 if they provide. I didn't take it but doesn't mean in future yet.
Recently i think seldom to open my blog here cause i might focus on my assignments. I would try my best to update myself. Just greet well la.... ~peace~

Getting Lose again

2009-04-02T20:10:00.004+08:00

What a bad day! Messenger cannot sign in, efes cannot log in. Everything i want to do also cannot do, just only can play facebook, friendster and blogger only. Even restart again still cannot use, internet and connection is going well but what's the fault going on??!!! Damn angry!! I'm just had myself how come when i want to finish my thing also cannot sure got trouble de wo...cannot let me just settle up my things. *kill myself*
I'm just felt myself very usefulness. Education is going like rubbish til now never have a diploma yet like learn nothing. Two years after only start a real diploma course even can finish the whole course yet also not sure! Time wasted already two years, there have nothing to me, no education, no working experience, no knowledge. My life after SPM is going like does not have future. I hate myself wasting time, doing usefulness and being like a human had no direction. I don't know why i can accept myself like this human being. I'm really really hate myself!
I'm just feel suffering but i don't know why?! About education, life, or future, who knows? Next Tue going too start diploma course, I'm happy cause I'll study again and getting this diploma but i got some arguing with parent cause the course fees and loan. In the period at home always not fun to mom with little matter. Just under control can't even go out whatever i like or join friends. God ask me still support by family some of thing cannot do in this moment. I had no income already since last year i got work. I think if situation allow me, I'll going to get some part time job to work for my income exclude pocket money while still study. After finish diploma, continue my dream that i wish before, there have three path to let me choose. See whether when that time i got which career to be in. While that time coming I'll feel happy and proud of myself cause finally i have what i want. I wish the time will coming fast so i had no worry like now cause i shouldn't to be an usefulness and lazy human being. Already wasted two years i hate myself even my family won't to accept me. My brother sister already have a good employment and own supporter, can do everything they want no need parent to support.
I'm still remind about my healthy. It's been three years soon. I haven to meet the doctor but i decide will take the operation. When the time come i think I'm very nervous and scare, wonder how i facing this! Another fees to be pay by parent again! I got use them a lots and own them a whole life! I wish the usefulness me will become a good, useful and knowledge human being even a successful women in dream of career. Haha... :-P

Done but bored

2009-03-22T17:55:00.003+08:00

This morning i went to breakfast with family exclude father. Afternoon went to college for registration my new course due to campus day have early bird discount. My mom and sis was followed as well. A mistaken by them that told me early bird discount RM200@20%. I'm wonder that if 20% given then there is deduct around RM7000++, it's a very happy thing for me. But the cruel giving me after i received a message and met them finally in campus, early bird discount is only RM200. Anyway even is RM200 but better than nothing, right?! After done, went to lunch with family again at Pizza Hut in Giant. Lunch finished and back home take bath. It's time to go home town. I want to go as well cause they will go to dinner at famous Seremban fries crab but i got an old friend who as primary to secondary school friend have a birthday party tonight already conformed so i might stay at home. I'm just feeling boring, no mood cause my family not in already just me with my second brother! Wanna get something to go to do; watch movie, cheong k or shopping also good but no body accompany alone going out also not fun. Erererer....boring boring and boring. Everytime i wanna get one friend but there have no one can going out with me. Maybe yea there have but almost got to make appointment. Sien already...anyone can stay in front of me then can let me gives vent to the mood, let my emo going off! Haha....too bad!
Seems like i got not much friends in the world. But do friends will think that i got a lots bunch of friends! Even myself can count it on. First is in secondary school, all staying around my house but we are not close or even a proper meet cause all going to have their own friends! Second is pj friends: covey, joey, kean seng, carmen, kelvin as i know. I knew them in secondary also but just cause friend introduced. They are staying in Kelana Jaya, only meet when birthday. I'll mix up with them cause before that i got lived in PJ so i might love to friend with PJ peoples. Mostly close with covey cause she always caring me and help me while i suffer. I'll like joey cause he's very friendly to me. Third is college mates such a only group of friends always meet up once every month. I would like to join with them cause we almost have fun crazy every time everywhere even we talk a small thing as well! They could always take me as a leader for gathering or birthday celebration. Since tsien speak out i got to make consultant fees from them as a leader. Hehe....What is call a friend
I have two weeks time to let go my wasting and free time to full fill in study. I gonna to have back to study life. I'm happy with that! Just two weeks time coming soon.

Suffer, suffer and suffer

2009-03-03T20:07:00.005+08:00

Since i want to continue study, choose to diploma in hospitality management. I had taken information from KDU, Taylor and Sunway College as well. Three of it have different course description and offer but almost the same. The most expensive is Taylor College. Most people might advices to Taylor but it is the most crowded peoples in the course. My friend who taking culinary arts told me that actually culinary arts is more educational than hospitality, since those culinary arts students was looking good than hospitality students. In my opinion is i just interested to study and assignments only cause I'm not even can do well for preparation in foods and working in the kitchen, if for my interested like having party for fun i would like to do that but except for working. I think KDU is not bad also. I got interested to in KDU prefer than Taylor but just not really sure which is the best to take part. It is my decision have to make before mid of March cause next intake in April. Another problem is course fees i have to suffer. Last day talked to my dad, it was terrible for me. Before that i realized sure would kena wan but anyway i have to tell him so. Even i had bears the tear comes out but what my dad said was doesn't make me stop crying. My mom was setting beside but she never mentioned anything. By the way, all my dad's said is reasonable also. After all of that, i went to brother's room since he was not in. Dad also went to sleep after not longer. I stay in the room and keep crying there, think back all the reasonable from dad. I don't know whether i should continue study or not, even i get to take loan from government also is a problem for my dad. By the way, half of my previous loan from government haven pay back yet so maybe affects second time procedure. Once of all money is the decisiveness for me to continue study.

Yesterday my best friend from secondary school, SiewPooi just informed me that she will get marry. OMG! I'm shouted about that cause i don't know it suppose to be happy or sad. She had mentioned to me that not even approve to married while still young when her younger cousins was be that. I'm not even acceptable that she is getting marry. She asked to go marriage registration bureau at Putrajaya since her bf is not from local. Finally it's terrible for her to facing this kind of thing; government not approve cause his permit, some more she have the same reason to get marry early as many younger couple did. I just no idea about this all, even nothing to great her. Some more she said she is not even wanted like that. Haiz...i'm just feel piece off by this happened. Wish she will be happy and good luck!

Wonder my red light is on

2009-02-05T21:29:00.005+08:00

I had finished my contract job since three weeks ago. First week is mostly nearest CNY so had to prepare stuff with mommy and also cleans up my room. When CNY, i didn't go anywhere even people's house visiting cause grandparent just pasted away last year. Stay home with family or just hanging with my aunts and uncles. The happiness were we all gather to gamble even at where we stay. I felt bored with my family and watched drama at home. Some day i'm not feeling well, headache, tired ans sleepy. I guess is just no enough sleep but it's not. Mostly the earlier get to sleep was me in the family, latest time to wake up around 10pm in the morning, but i still felt uncomfortable. I started worried my healthy cause i had an illness "breast tumor" since two years ago. Actually i should have to subsequent visit to doctor but just have three times i had been hospital only til now. The same advices from different doctor to take operation cut out the tumor but i didn't take cause i scare. By the way, the doctor said even i take this operation but not guarantee have second tumor again. Since it doesn't worst to me so i never take the operation even it's a small operation. My mom had advice me to go UM have a check again then take the operation. Now i had take it serious and think of it, either i need to take it. I'll follow my mom, get one day go to UM have a check first. I'm more trusted on UM anyway cause their efficient is good then other private hospital...hehe

Staff Relation

2009-01-31T21:30:00.000+08:00

Since i worked for 3 months plus there, i'm very happy that i knew Irene, VYen, and my jiejie-Elva cause they really nice peoples and treat me as beloved friend. 20th was my last day stay in elken so they treated me at Zenri for dinner as my farewell. The food is quiet nice and we enjoyed it as well. I'm very appreciated all the things they gave include the gifts. It is no regret to knew them.
Next to this, mostly i want to talk is a newest staff in our dept. Since he was worked till the date, i seldom contact with him cause I'm busy my own thing to finish up before my last day. Cause lunch time and the annual dinner stuff let we know each other. I can felt that he treated me is different from he treating other ladies. He would make chance to talk with me and asked for something. Firstly i though had make thing wrong but when the thing comes continuously then i realized it's nothing wrong. At his birthday party at home, i even my colleagues also think that girl is his gf seem his friend was talked about they both so i though i had make things wrong of what i had felt. Until the day on annual dinner, he seriously mentioned to me that he's single and available when VYen talked his girl. He was very serious and honesty to told me that, I wonder to know why but actually i guess it. Monday is his birthday, actually i had nothing for him but seem others gift for him so i plan something but reality is not as what i planed. That day i had lunch with VYen, Elva so after then we share and bought a cake to celebrate at office for him. We prepared everything secretly, Elva asked me to hold everything so i got to prepared the cake once they had ready. I don't think he was surprise but happy for that. Actually i think it's normal and memorable cause first time birthday celebrated i enjoyed in office. He suck like very appreciated and guess i'm the one to organized for him (actually not only me lo). I found out something in facebook that make sure that he's chasing me>>my name appeared in his profile's note before added me in friend list. In FaceBook i can knew something already but i don't even go and do anything cause all of it was never comes up from his mouth or even an actual action, just i guess and feel only. All the way, i just open and blink one eye, don't bother anything there. On my last day, i was just talked with Karen after i settle up all my cases then goes in to Vyen and Elva till off time then went to Zenri. Before i leave he would give a hug with me but i felt like uncomfortable cause i feel like before make thing clear better behave lo!! The next day, he sms me around lunch time, said that he miss me, im not there not happy la, wanna see me such like that la...and also asked me friday night free or not but after no reply already. In this few days he never mentioned about friday jogaya dinner (that 38 had told me in facebook but it's a surprise, since he told already also no surprise liao lo...damn stupid and 38 wan). Until thursday night he just asked me free or not but never deal for a date or else, seems he's like busy than me. I seems like so excited but lastly it not that realistic! Seriously, i was give a chance but he's not fully trusted cause i still have some retention of him.
Last friday night, VYen meet me went to republic with Irene and Elva, he also will join. VYen told me jacky said that if i'm not going he also won't go so ok la...i heard that then i told VYen since he was like that then ask him to fetch me lo. I don't know what time to meet or he come so i just wait for him to inform me but around 6pm he told me that he cannot go cause have something to do so nvm i had to go myself. I called VYen twice but she never picked up call then just wait she call back. Irene called me after 7.30pm, she though i'm on the way but i was still at home dinner also haven take yet. She said VYen asked to meet at 8pm then i got to quickly take my dinner and prepare even make up also didnt make then go off. Reached there 8.30pm then meet Irene went to Haegen-Daze (don't know right or not la) wait for VYen and Elva. We got to Republic before 10pm cause happy hour, but there have no peoples le quiet static the situation. We still can enjoy cause the musics played is nice. We got ordered four jug of beer. Since i got drive so i must behave myself...no good but no choice!! Irene met her friends there then seat together but i felt dislike with them so doesn't bother them. Nicholas appeared after not longer, our mood is getting fun then...dance, play, chat. The bad things comes up...he suddenly appeared when i looked back at a time. I felt a bit shocked then look to VYen wonder how come he was there but no one know that. Nicholas was seat beside me (actually V asked to do that, i guess V should know whats going on de just i don't know only) said that's my bf i wanna blame him liao...haha. Of cause he's not come to me, go to talked with VYen and Elva. I don't bother him just keep talk with Nicholas. Then after he comes to me and regard few words with me, i didn't talk much with him. After 5 mins he goes off, i don't know what happen la he also didn't mentioned anything with me. We realized the few guys keep drink with us of cause we didn't bother so much...V seems improper so ask me, Nicholas and Elva go away and take action to go off the place. Nicholas was working at coco banana so he got to leave first then me and Elva. I'm the first to back home then Irene, V and Elva went to coco awhile. Really spoiled my mood lo...how come he can like that wan, said cannot go but suddenly appear. It's doesn't matter but the problems is he was at coco with his friends, that called 'got something to do'. It was disappointed me at all. This guy already decrease his marks.
Luckily I'm with Vyen, Irene and Elva, if not i gonna to drive off. They really very good lo, will know what I'm think and comfort me all the time.

Bad Mood....

2009-01-09T21:43:00.000+08:00

Today working normal as usual. In the afternoon, i heard that have to get the door gift of annual dinner. So usually never miss up...when my am get the call then asked me and two colleague going to down stair hr to pick up the gift. I just went there then saw hr executive was arraging there, then she saw me and pick my dept gift that already arranged by them. Suddenly she told me that i'm not suppose to have the gift but she'll gave two box of the Spirulina cracker biskuit! When i heard that damn piece off, peoples from other dept was there le...damn losing face...damn stupid $%^$*. I'm going to get the door gift but i'm not entered! please la...first i'm really want go off liao but since my colleague is new if not i won't to appear there! How come i'm able to stay OT and working for them so hardworking...three months closing also that le but not entered for that! If not my senior and am asked me to attend the annual dinner, i'm preparing to leave before closing liao! Now giving me this kind of things..bullshit! Really unhappy lo feel like don't want to attend the annual dinner also. Since i going back thinking about that i had no mood already but i still keep quiet do nothing and continue my work. My colleague>Karen looked at me she still comfort me. Thanks Karen even she won't to view my blog! Please myself to not angry and crying, i keep doing my work settle all the cases and forget about it! Finally, before off my am knew it and asked me that then ask me go to take hers if i'm need it but finally i didn't! I'm really really appreciated my AM that so kind and caring, and also my colleague Karen feel pity to me. Anyway, i'm feel better that i have a new colleague. Thanks you so much for them!
When i'm going back feel like wanna giving vent to the mood. I'm still remember last two monday not feeling happy so got my brother's car, drove out from Puchong>Bukit Jalil>Seremban Highway>Federal Highway>LDP>back to Puchong! I don't know why and how to explain about it, just know i'm did it and felt better after. I bought Mc'D at LDP's toll and took it back to home and enjoy. Haha...today i'm feeling that but didn't did the same thing cause i'm drove different car and that time is prosperous time of traffic so can't do that. I'm realized now, when i'm going in the bad or unhappy mood, this is the way to give vent to the mood! If like before, i'll going to giving vent to my mom or scolding with her. Every word also doesn't like to heard and acceptable! Maybe i'm changing now.
Just now, calvin was accepted friends in facebook of mine, then SP want to know what is in open it up and see...then going to hurt myself. Actually i'm still care and mind about it. Normally when i saw it suppose to have nothing to jealous but today i'm did it again. Maybe i'm not really to give it up, but i'm told myself 'he is not again with me as anything' seems its that is a reality. Sometime i think i'll be ok but finally i'm not. Just i'm lie to myself or force my mind to forget it. Got anyway to do it better??!!! I had tried just it's not fully to give it up??!! Can anyone to tell me or teach me how...... I don't know how many time i got to hurt myself again and again, don't know when only can stop it happen on me! I always have no answer to myself!

Wishing List in 2009

2009-01-07T21:30:00.000+08:00

A new year, A new beginning. I'm very appreciated this word while every new year coming, but i had just in normal mood to welcoming new year, never have excited or anticipation for the new coming year. Anyway, i'm still wishing for the new year will be more wonderful and meaningful! It's also greet to anyone of them in my mind & soul!
I'm create a bit different in this year. First, i wish my hope can be successful and smooth in reality. Second, i wish any happening will be a happy and joyful and no sadness to allow(just try the best la wont every moment also never sad)...haha!! Third, i will need to create a wishing gift or something that i wish to get in this year cause when the time to think what i want or some people may ask most fully willing to not remember that much, so this listing will be more easier to know...haha. It's smart or too careful...self-respect!! Below is my listing start up...

~new phone with higher mega pixels (wish to change phone for a few years ago)
*looking for now is SE C902i
~canon digital ixus 800IS (my lovely camera that lose)
~sunglasses (i wish for so long already still haven get one)
~Bag, Purse (since is taken by force by robber, til now haven get the new yet)
~Necklace, Bracelet, Earrings (better it's come with set)

It is arrange by the most favorite be the first. Will be always update once i get some new stuff.
If any friends had take note on this i will be very happy!

Stay tune!

My dearest and beloved

2008-12-09T20:38:00.000+08:00

28th of August, Thursday. My grandfather was pasted away on 3.10pm. The same time i was at home, my mother been there, 3.30pm only my mom to contacted me. At the same time, i was on the phone with my sister-in-law to help her online booking for Saturday night movie ticket, before to the pay transaction, she just received call from my brother to cancel it cause they can't be go already. I'm felt like not important for me when i knew that then i went to keep some cloths for me and my mom as well, preparing to go grandparent's house. Since i went there, outside had few canopy, in the house is empty, some staff was rush in and out to prepared the things for funeral. I went in and drop down my things in my uncle's room, then went out the living room. My cousins all around gather there and also my aunts and uncles, they were discuss something for funeral. Little cousin was still making happy feel but some adults was still in the sad mood. Since i went there i never seen my grandfather last face cause i scare i can't enduring to cry. The first day not yet to start mourning etiquette so granddaughter can go back home. We get a best rest then only went to overnight at there. Funeral had going on for three days two night. First night i didn't sleep til 4am or 5am something only went to sleep, around morning after sun wast there only i went to my uncle's room to sleep on the comfortable bed. Ha ha...too bad! The second day, i can't enduring to stay there then i went to sleep before they sleep so i can sleep on the bed cause the third day need to wake up early and for conducting a funeral procession...Ha ha. Every night when the etiquette on all the grandchildren was just like a child joke and fun around not even like a sadness thing happened. It's suck like a unfilial children. He he...but those adults also nothing else, seriously it's already a reality so we just have to acceptable only. People must look forward not backward. The third day was the sadness day cause we would please our beloved grandfather went to peaceful. The two hours funeral procession of conduction some would crying for that included me. All looks like a serious and sadness faced to the coffin and can't speak anything. After the funeral ended when back to home, the last session finished, one by one waiting for bath cause we all already have a smelly body for three days. That day is Sunday and damn tired so since we went back home dropped down everything bath again then laying on the bed for few hours. Til 8pm something my father only wake up and asking us went to dinner. All still blur cause it was not enough sleep yet so we just ate some foods only then went back to sleep again. Luckily the next day Monday is public holiday so no need to work or study. Morning uncle giving a call for breakfast - dim sum at KJ. Four tables for our whole family still can not cover fully. After then, my grandma want to go grave for a look so we planed to went there in the afternoon then went to 'sifu' at ampang. Whole family gathered whole day went here and there then dinner at KJ as well. This was Lum's family gathered for five days, joked fun and played.
1st of October, Hari Raya Day, my grandma went to ipoh with my uncle and aunt. After went back for few days, she get not feeling well so my uncle send her to hospital Assunta. Body checking for few days already the doctor still haven know what is happen til one week time only said the report show that gallbladder is infected so must take operation to cut it out. After the operation my grandma was in HDU for one week++ then move to normal ward. Two weeks ago my grandma move out from hospital already, seems my first aunt was not taking her so good so my second aunt shift her to aunt's house take care of her. Since that day my grandma feel better and better again. After one month times my aunt got to work so grandma shift back to home.
One week time not even gone yet, she went to clinic for checking cause she feel her stomach very pain. The doctor asked to go hospital checking for clearly but my uncle still send her back to same hospital since last time the same doctor was not good enough for checking. My mom already suggest to send to UM but they still not listening especially my first aunt. Since she was a teacher before but she is damn no knowledge wan though that she very experienced won't able to listen to people. The sadness thing came. The doctor suggest to take another operation cause have a 7" tumor surrounding the half stomach. This is a such serious operation to have. After this second operation, she was in ICU for three weeks time. I was sadness when every time went to visited her. My uncles is suffering cause the cost of the ward is damn expensive then they only think to shift hospital but the problem is she is in serious condition. Since she was take away the oxygen hole, they first min asked the doctor sign for shift to UM.
Last Friday night, i received sms from aunt that grandma already shifted to UM after i finished work. After i bath and take my dinner, i was online checking mailbox and so on. Then my mom received call asked to go hospital. My father went to meeting so just brother, me with mom to go. Just reached we saw all gather at ground floor include my mom's relatives. I was keep listening that relatives suggestion giving an injection (that is something to make people feel painless but not for illness, some kind of let people gone) and this and that la. Shit thing...hopeless they can said like that. Even my uncles also listening to them the same opinion to give. I wonder how come they can be that, giving up to let grandma leave. I'm very angry and sadness that they can be that. I heard that actually she need to take operation to clear the organ cause already injection inside but just have 10% chance. Then my mom asked to call my dad to come along. Since my dad came, he advised them to take operation for her but they're still the same, decided to rejected and send her back home not even treasuring the only 10%. Since it's already late at night, after we visit grandma then back home, but they not even conform anything then all gone.
Yesterday (Saturday) i got work til 3pm. I know mom will be there afternoon then i received brother called asked to straightly go grandma's house cause she was back home already. I'm already tired enough but have to went there still. For two hours then i went back. Unlucky day, i went to bank to access my new card with new password but it decline my card and never returned back...damn it! Now i had to go back to the bank and report to cs branch. Damn 'mafan' liao! Went back home, keep this and that then bath. Wait til dad came back then go dinner and back to grandma's house again.
Today, Sunday. Early morning breakfast with parent and sister. I keep cleaning house the whole day and lunch with cousin sister then now writing blog for bullshitting. Stupid enough... Now my dad came back and bath already, so i got to leave for dinner and go to grandma's house again.
To be continue...a lots thing and long time never updated already.

My first job

2008-12-03T22:23:00.001+08:00

Since i was withdraw already from june until oct, i had did nothing at all>stay home, played with bibi, went out to anywhere. I had been an "princess" for few months. A period of time i never update my blog cause i had full-filled my time with other stupid stuff and lazy to update my blog. Since i got work already i more busy toward my work.

Recently i got my first job as customer service assistant at old klang road. I had started my work at Oct but it's not longer job. I just wonder to work as temporary only. Maybe this month will be my last month to stay there. Since i work til now i seems like not so happy. First of all, there's always adding on cases before i finish my cases. Everyday facing the same few different case very complicated and it had to take time to finish one case. This is not the worst. After one month there, my senior had leave then an AM is started treating me not good as before when i knew her til now i had no idea how to face her everyday. If i got nothing i never to disturb her except if my senior and AM also not in so i might go to her. If it's no choice la. This happened was make me wanna far away from her better if i leave.

I'm still in free minded cause i still not conform to decide which i want to do. Either study hotel management or waiting for cabin crew interview in MAS, I hope so but it's look like wasting time. If i get to study already and same time i get the job offer then i might withdraw again ah. I wish to not withdraw second time again.
Cause since i was worked i don't wonder to working for whole life like this.
Since the time when i withdraw until now, i had no idea what i had did. I'm feel like i was wasting time by the moment. I guess i still get lose.

Try something new

2008-08-24T11:20:00.000+08:00

8th August(Friday), I had met Kooi Lee together to go register for a contest>ifeel girl search 2008 at KDU college. We want to try our luck to get in the competition. Firstly, past up a portrait with register form to them and after wait for their reply whether should be choosen. Once finished we go back and i went to lunch with James at Dragon-i Pyramid. James order two desserts and i order a seafood noodle and 'siew long pao'. That day is James paid for the bill >RM50. Ha ha....thanks James!!
Within one week, Kooi Lee called me back told me that have any staff of them calling me, i said nope and why. Kooi Lee told me that she had been choose in top 40 and go for audition on coming Saturday. I'm glad to heard that she success so i might wish her good luck and all the best in audition.
15th August(Friday), Today i gotta help Desmond(Calvin's brother) in photo shooting. I'm being his model for an assignment. It's first time but directly it's second time because last time photo shooting is for senior's final workshop. Last time i felt sorry to him coz i just help once and haven finish yet. The next day i had rejected him coz i had rushing my final assignment. So i might make him all going messy, really felt sorry to him! This time is outdoor shooting, different than last time, it can say is successful. Finally i had an experience to be a model but not much. Wish i still have next time again. Ha ha....wish me yea!!!
16th August(Saturday), Don't know it's lucky or not, on the same day i had to go SIA cabin crew interview. I think it back if i had been choose to in top 40 also then how can i go on the same things (audition & interview) in the same time. But finally i didn't been choose so i went to my interview and Kooi Lee went to her audition. We would wish each other for our own career. When reached there, i saw a crowded peoples there, I'm feel nervous and scare. I take a number and stay at waiting area to be calling. Audition ended in early afternoon and I'm still in the waiting time for interview, Kooi Lee came to my place accompany me. Before she get my lunch, I'm in the progressing for round one interview already so i might told her that just wait me there. One hour ago, i haven finish yet so she might go back first and wait for my news. Four hours there, just round one i already failed. That is a introducing interview by ten person in group. After interview, we would stay outside to wait for the judgment's decision. Few mins ago, one of us had been choose to try a second interview again, the others might leave. In my opinion, they need a communication skill very well in English. I knew my English is just "half of a pail of water" so i don't even think that i will success just take it as a test for experience. I will try again if have next chance. May god bless me to success my dream!!!
There it is by this two weeks. Will be continued...
~Stay peace~ & ~Good Lucky Go~ :P

Good cover the Bad

2008-08-03T21:45:00.000+08:00

College mates have a gathering today but there were doesn't all attended just only eight people>>Audrey, Jasmine, Miko, One, Alexia, Nicholas, James and me as well. This just a small gathering for lunch but start on 3pm and ended around 4pm. After ended all separate, jasmine and Nicholas have to leave, one and Alexia also gone their own, then i got to go buy things and they three just followed me. Audrey had control herself don't to watch out anything coz she don't want to shopping. But then, James going to buy a cloth, i had just walked around and looking some stuff then Audrey had piece off about James. Haha... But i also looked up a shirt and pants that's for preparing for my work soon. hehe...sorry Audrey i had to do that hope that didn't even influence u. Actually i would spend all my time with them until night but they need to go back home and i didn't drive so just back home lo...no choice. 7.30pm arrived home, there had nothing to do with no family whose went back hometown, sadness, i called my best friend PuiLee and care about her sickness. After that, i went to take bath and cook maggi goreng for dinner, pity me, then go up stair and online now writing my blog-sadness day!!! This is my Sunday time-boring just boring!

Last Friday, a new branch Public Bank at Puteri had opening ceremony. There had lion dance on 12pm so i decided to bring bibi go and watch. Lion dance started already and the lion went to up stair those drummers at down stair knocking. Bibi watched at them don't know what is it. Few more mins, there two lions come down and walk in the bank so i bring bibi walk in from the other side to watch the lion dance. I get him to touch the lion but he scared. No longer he jumping and jumping by the drum sound, when the lion seating and eating the orange, he walk to the lion and touch the shoe..haha so funny...finally when the managers take photo he walk front to the lion dance and get up....hahaha ah bi so cute! After finish, we enjoy the food had prepared then only go back home. Look at bibi play with the lion so cute and funny!!!

There just a short post for today because last few days is just nothing special to write just the same. ~Stay peace~

My grandfather will be passing soon

2008-07-20T12:53:00.001+08:00

Last two weeks doesn't have time to upload my blog. Now, i wanna writing something here again.
Last two Monday, my brother had take leave didn't work so decided already wanna go to lunch with my mom for replace my mom's birthday. But, in the early morning I'm still sleeping, my phone keep ring for few times already my mom was picked it up....that time my sister just preparing go to work then she sudden come up and wake me up and told me grandfather not well already. I felt shock and quickly wake up and tidy up. My brother also woke up already. My mom was out of motion very rush to change her cloths take her wallet and call to ahbi's mother that today wanna take off. I also get her confused but i told her don't be hurry la keep calm down. I help her keep things off then faster go to grandparent's house. so that day planning should be cancelled. When getting there, all my aunts, uncles and cousins also standing around the bed. My mom ask grandma should ask a doctor come to see whats going on grandfather. Wait for doctor seeing my grandfather, then the doctor told us that he getting fever so felt uncomfortable. After that we all only take a breath. Few Min's ago, uncles aunts and my mom deciding should send my grandfather go hospital or not. So, we all cousins get out of the room and stay at living room then we all keep talking about my grandma worry too much and make them wasting time doesn't go to work. Finally, cousin sister and brother also go to work already and leave few those who take leave already. Rush here and there early morning finally it's no big deal so..haiz! After that, we continue our plan to go lunch but my aunt uncle and cousins also go together...we all around 9 peoples went to the curve taking lunch at a high class restaurant. Ha ha...At night should be celebrated laikuan's birthday but just coz my grandfather rushing my time and make doesn't have mood to join them scare i spoil their mood there so told covey i can't make it.
Sorry lai kuan didn't celebrated ur birthday but hope u don't mind and happy!

On Thursday, Jusco member's day at Jusco Equine Park. I went there with my mom and aunt. Doesn't have anything to buy just walk and walk around looking my mom buying things play with ahbi but a bit boring also coz too much people around and some more those thing so messy. Actually wanna buy bag for myself but doesn't look like suit me but finally also got one la. Haha...finish all stuff then from serdang past puchong went to pj fetch my cousin back home.

Friday, nothing to do...ahbi also like no mood to stay in home so my mom ask to go aunt's house. Stay for not longer then she wanna go out liao so i ask my mom don't we go grandparent there. So went to pj old town take lunch then visit my grandparents.

The next week, i think it's nothing special also. Everyday woke up, breakfast, watch movie, clean house, go out lunch, online....repeat the same thing too! Sien ah when only i got work to do. Haiz...

SooHui's birthday coming soon! Yesterday went to pavilion watched movie with my brother and two naughty cousins. At the same place soohui and amelie also work there. The show is still have some time so i went to find them but soohui off shift already so i met amelie and get to know whether tonight free or not. Luckily they can change shift with others. The celebration i had plan success. Wish soo hui and amelie happy early birthday here!
I just stop here and will upload new again when free.
Haha...
Stay peace.

Getting mood to create my new blog

2008-07-06T14:44:00.000+08:00

Hi hi hi!!!
Suddenly have some mood wanna create a new blog. Actually had first blog in friendster already. This is third blog. I think it should be private wan...hehe!
Now have been start a new first post, wonder to know who will open up my blog side to view?!!

Today is Sunday, most fully Sunday i would be went out with my mom, but today didn't. Like normal every Sunday morning my parent have a tradition. That is wake up early morning go breakfast. My dad came in my room and wake me up...i was a bit lazy still laying on my bed few Min's only wanna get up. My elder brother was followed today coz need to work. After breakfast came back home, actually lose my mind don't know what to do coz doesn't have anything to do so then i went to washed my dad's car(the most bigger in my house). Ha ha...never tried to wash car so early in the morning it's first time! Finished then went out wanna take car subsidy with my mom and sis but didn't open so get to lunch at KFC. Came back home then washed my new and only one green color shirt and trousers. Haiz...felt tired already i think should take a nap liao...

OK la...just stop here! But don't know when will upload new again coz I'm always feel like no so free to type and type...hehe but i most like diary so! Even the first two blog already seldom upload new liao lu...
Free to see u again la...
Bye Bye!!