Recents

Already three weeks didn't touch up my blog, I'm just take some time to update now! I was three weeks in my college life again. And now it's another feeling in college than before. Most of them is look younger than me, some peoples may also think I'm Korean!! The first three days in orientation just knew three little girls, i was look mature a bit than them. Three of them have different character, but still have one(Elaine) is quiet communicated/closer with me cause she's not that childish than other two. We are separated to different group for classes but then i was seldom to met the two childish girl but i was just closer with Elaine for lunch break together. Beside that, i was felt quiet and boring with my group mates as well. They most are christian just only three peoples are Chinese, but then i was no topic with them. Suddenly feel like wanna change group of cause not now cause was three weeks already have some group assignment started to do. I just try my best to join with them until the end of semester i would properly think about it again. Everything is just ok with me now just the peoples i haven match up with them yet, by the moment just feel good with Elaine maybe we're the parent to each other. Ha ha...nice to meet her!
Today is Audrey's Birthday! Before that wanna make a celebration dinner with her but since she is busy than me cause her assignments just come none stop. Actually Kooi Lee with me have thing that bought before the week to her already so may wish her like it but then is not give her yet since Kooi Lee no time. Sorry Audrey but we'll give it to you soon after she come back and meet you again. May wish you Happy Birthday again and good luck! Most of all really want to take good care of yourself.
Move away of my study, let's talk about my life. Last week Kacuak had intro me to attend a make up workshop being a model for her friends. I was happy with the result on the day. While i post up my photos friends might think I'm getting marry. Ha ha...just a fool friends! Please la...I'm not involve in any real relationship yet how come to marry la...use your brain la! :-P Before that, actually would have a model shooting with Kacuak but my time was not allow cause i was in classes. Finally he was went out of country already so may wait next time he come back again only take it again. I would love to wait for it again! I'm very happy that he took me as first chosen to him! he he...
Last few days ago, i received a reply email that i send for part time jobs. I'm happy that first time have reply for jobs even finally not chosen for employee. Beside that also have a company reply that wish to recruit me as model but i need to have a portfolio cost RM300 if they provide. I didn't take it but doesn't mean in future yet.
Recently i think seldom to open my blog here cause i might focus on my assignments. I would try my best to update myself. Just greet well la.... ~peace~

Getting Lose again

What a bad day! Messenger cannot sign in, efes cannot log in. Everything i want to do also cannot do, just only can play facebook, friendster and blogger only. Even restart again still cannot use, internet and connection is going well but what's the fault going on??!!! Damn angry!! I'm just had myself how come when i want to finish my thing also cannot sure got trouble de wo...cannot let me just settle up my things. *kill myself*
I'm just felt myself very usefulness. Education is going like rubbish til now never have a diploma yet like learn nothing. Two years after only start a real diploma course even can finish the whole course yet also not sure! Time wasted already two years, there have nothing to me, no education, no working experience, no knowledge. My life after SPM is going like does not have future. I hate myself wasting time, doing usefulness and being like a human had no direction. I don't know why i can accept myself like this human being. I'm really really hate myself!
I'm just feel suffering but i don't know why?! About education, life, or future, who knows? Next Tue going too start diploma course, I'm happy cause I'll study again and getting this diploma but i got some arguing with parent cause the course fees and loan. In the period at home always not fun to mom with little matter. Just under control can't even go out whatever i like or join friends. God ask me still support by family some of thing cannot do in this moment. I had no income already since last year i got work. I think if situation allow me, I'll going to get some part time job to work for my income exclude pocket money while still study. After finish diploma, continue my dream that i wish before, there have three path to let me choose. See whether when that time i got which career to be in. While that time coming I'll feel happy and proud of myself cause finally i have what i want. I wish the time will coming fast so i had no worry like now cause i shouldn't to be an usefulness and lazy human being. Already wasted two years i hate myself even my family won't to accept me. My brother sister already have a good employment and own supporter, can do everything they want no need parent to support.
I'm still remind about my healthy. It's been three years soon. I haven to meet the doctor but i decide will take the operation. When the time come i think I'm very nervous and scare, wonder how i facing this! Another fees to be pay by parent again! I got use them a lots and own them a whole life! I wish the usefulness me will become a good, useful and knowledge human being even a successful women in dream of career. Haha... :-P