I know I have minor headache problem, but normally this is normal.
This January I had an operation to cut off the tumour, it's really successful. I am still all fine till now, I'm being normal as usual like a human.
Recently i felt that my body really getting weak. I'm not really sure what's wrong but the headache caused problem. It's like getting serious.
Last Sunday, in the middle of night suddenly felt my head very pain, feel like want to knock my head to the wall to kill it, once in a while feel like vomit. It's been scared my bf away cause he had looking after me and no idea what's happen to me. Few times he wanted to send me to hospital but i kept quiet till i vomited then i felt getting better so continue to sleep back. Few hours after he woke up prepare for work, he wanted leave me at his home but i refused and went back my home.
Until Wednesday, just right before i wake up headache come again. I though i'll ok so i got up and ready to work. When i was driving get to feel like faint, not in the situation to concentrate so starting to scare it's dangerous. It's time 8am on the way out from Puchong. Finally i make a u-turn back to home, rest till 9am go to clinic cause i really feel something wrong. Waiting for doctor in the moment i make a call to told that i'll MC for half day. Thinking that cause got project to be done before the show. Finally doctor reached, the first in to visit. After checking, doctor couldn't find any symptom/illness but my blood pressure is LOW. I asked 'headache will be a symptom of one kind of illness', the doctor told it might be. First time i check my blood pressure and i starting to worry myself. It is time to have body check, girl.
When i told my bf, he just woke up laying on his bed sms-ing with me. When received my message straight away awake and shocked. Anyway, doctor remind to have a body check when free. I still like normal take my medicine, went to buy brunch, got back home. Ate medicines then rest in the room. Till i woke up nearly 12pm, suppose to go back work but i don't think i can so have to call back office again. Haiz!
The whole Wednesday i stayed home, it was so good to me cause i'm not boring. Played with meimei, no PC for the day.
After the day, my bf started to controlling my habits. Behave myself in foods, excuse me, i don't feel like want to have heavy food already, unless u willing to cook for me la ;P Ask me to exercise, jogging an hour every weekend with him, oh shit, feel like he want tie me up. No coffee onward, i wanted but sorry cause MILO just finished. Anyway i'll reduce coffee taking. All right, i know this boss! This is normal, ok i accept. He said to me, LBP is caused by... ... (I know lo) ... ... (haiz). This he asked his cousin at overseas who's a doctor. I want to say ... alright :( rally have to behave
For my family, i just told my mom and she said to me: Got Brands Chicken Essence don't want to drink keep so long...ok ok i will go grab and finish it. I think there have 10-14 cans ;)
This few days changing my driving attitude. Don't be excited cause i don't think will really 100% change...sshhiiihh(keep ur mouth) Anyway im not really got the fully confidence but i still understand the situation.
Friends, no worries! I'm all right. ;)
Life is a long journey to go on
A moment have been created between happiness and sadness.
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Thursday, April 28, 2011
心还酸
Monday, April 11, 2011
New path to future plan
Final already finished. My 2-year diploma officially finished. The End!
In between i face some problem that i never expected. But luckily i had try my best changing my character to turn it over. In the end, i did it. Now i don't think i have to do this again cause i'm release from there already.
Beside that, i have to thanks my lovely bf that he supported me all the way, especially when i want to give up some time. He got to understand my feeling that i went through and thanks him give me advises that make me feel better. If not him, i don't know who can i refer and understand me!
It's not easy for me to take this diploma but it's not hard as well. Not easy is because of the people i know; Not hard is because the subjects based on more practical typed. It is too bad that i couldn't do well in written. In the final period, my emotion have been effected due to my dad's suddenly leave us.
Honestly, i admitted that i didn't did well especially in written paper. Just, i got my final results stated that i failed my hotel management written paper consists of 6 subjects. I know i can score in financial maths and budgeting accounts, but it's very disappointed me that i couldn't get it well. I think just only this paper had bring my marks down.
I can't blame anyone i can't do anything, the only thing i can do is just accept it.
Anyway, however i still have to proceed to what i want to do.
Either in model career or event planner, i have to plan both together and see how things going then only i will know which prefer the better in my future.
First, i want to find a path to enter model career start with part time.In another way, i find a path to know about wedding planner that very popular career now. After that, i try to work in event planner then get to know this interesting job.
Why i choose this both but not related to my diploma that i studies, cause i don't like to stay in one place and work only. I don't like everyday repeat the same thing, sit in the office doing documents filling. That's not what i want cause it's boring, not interesting at all!
I wish i could pick the right one and success in anyone i also satisfied!
Guys, i wish i can get supported from you all! If can please give me the way! =P
In between i face some problem that i never expected. But luckily i had try my best changing my character to turn it over. In the end, i did it. Now i don't think i have to do this again cause i'm release from there already.
Beside that, i have to thanks my lovely bf that he supported me all the way, especially when i want to give up some time. He got to understand my feeling that i went through and thanks him give me advises that make me feel better. If not him, i don't know who can i refer and understand me!
It's not easy for me to take this diploma but it's not hard as well. Not easy is because of the people i know; Not hard is because the subjects based on more practical typed. It is too bad that i couldn't do well in written. In the final period, my emotion have been effected due to my dad's suddenly leave us.
Honestly, i admitted that i didn't did well especially in written paper. Just, i got my final results stated that i failed my hotel management written paper consists of 6 subjects. I know i can score in financial maths and budgeting accounts, but it's very disappointed me that i couldn't get it well. I think just only this paper had bring my marks down.
I can't blame anyone i can't do anything, the only thing i can do is just accept it.
Anyway, however i still have to proceed to what i want to do.
Either in model career or event planner, i have to plan both together and see how things going then only i will know which prefer the better in my future.
First, i want to find a path to enter model career start with part time.In another way, i find a path to know about wedding planner that very popular career now. After that, i try to work in event planner then get to know this interesting job.
Why i choose this both but not related to my diploma that i studies, cause i don't like to stay in one place and work only. I don't like everyday repeat the same thing, sit in the office doing documents filling. That's not what i want cause it's boring, not interesting at all!
I wish i could pick the right one and success in anyone i also satisfied!
Guys, i wish i can get supported from you all! If can please give me the way! =P
Sunday, April 10, 2011
2011 is not a good year
Since New Year till now, there are so many thing happened up and down in between my family, my life,my healthy, my education.
Jan, i had my first operation in my life to remove the tumor in right breast. Luckily it's not critical and i'm be save. But another way, i'm not satisfied cause another tumor in opposite side exist. It couldn't be touched so just let it be. About operation i don't want have again cause it's very scary for me.
CNY this year, can say it's good cause this year we went to visited all relatives' house because have to take down relatives' names for preparation of my brother's wedding guests list. By the way, my dad seems very happy and enjoyable with us and family relatives cause he did joined every occasions. My family had a very enjoyable and happiness reunion this year.
CNY just pasted doesn't mean sad thing have to come, but it's happened.
My dad had pasted away just right after. It's very very shock and i don't even can accept it. The day before i had night class till got home already 9pm plus. I had my dinner then my dad came in and fooling with me, i don't have mood to replied him cause someone make my temper. The next day, i woke up in the morning found out that my parent's room door still closing i though maybe my dad not feeling well having a rest, so i don't care then switch on my shower heater and go to bath. After my mom finished laundry get in to her room and realized that he's already no breathing. She came to me and shouted that my dad's got something wrong so i faster got out from bathroom and run to my dad, he's laying on the bed and got some white liquids came out from his mouth. I run to my mom down stair, she's on the phone to my brother sister and i kept calm her down and i make a call to emergency line. Few mins after my uncle came and my brother came back as well. I was thinking that time my dear should be going to college so i don't know either should i call him but finally i did. We're in very emo and don't know what can do except called our closer family. Then my uncle said went out any clinic invite doctor to come over. After that my sister and brother reached home and we're all just stay beside my dad couldn't say anything. No any doctor willing to come then the ambulants reached, suggested that we have to go police station make a report cause they couldn't do anything else.
The pain that hard to understand when nothing to help ur love one. He is my dad! Beside cry seriously heart is painful till nothing to describe it. I can't accept that my dad just left, is my dad. His voice his attitude his actions not longer can hear and see anymore. I still remember if i wake him up in the morning, he will open his eyes look at me and asked "what's happen"(in cantonese), then i will shake his body till he get out from the bed. When i come back home and he's sitting on his table reading newspaper, he will look at me locked the door and turn around face him, then he will asked "where i went, now only come back"(in cantonese). But now onward, it won't happen again. I won't heard his voice, his loud cough again. I won't see he's sitting on his table or in the living room eating again. I don't even have chance again to have breakfast and dinner with him on Sunday. I don't even can hear his laughter voice again when reunion. Till now, i will still crying when i think of him. I don't have a chance to tell him that I love him!
Next, my dad had left a lots thing to be carry on by us from household to his business. It is the time for my brother to proceed my dad's business finally. The most important and difficult thing is financial problem for family and business. Of cause there's also some conflicts we face but we're still staying claim and cooperate together.
I'm worry about my mom even how i wish she can stay strong and cheerful to continue stay with us, continue enjoy the happiness with us.
Jan-Mac 2011 is my last term of diploma holder. Went through final classes till final exam and final practical. On 25th of March is the result announcement, but then it's not what i want cause i just got Honourable Pass only in between 12-24 marks. I understand it cause i didn't did well in practical and didn't gives too much efforts on it due to i don't have the mood to do it well.
So far, i have to plan out probably what i want to do in the future. And so i want to start my career as soon as possible cause i want to reduce my family spending.
Wish me luck guys!!! =)
Jan, i had my first operation in my life to remove the tumor in right breast. Luckily it's not critical and i'm be save. But another way, i'm not satisfied cause another tumor in opposite side exist. It couldn't be touched so just let it be. About operation i don't want have again cause it's very scary for me.
CNY this year, can say it's good cause this year we went to visited all relatives' house because have to take down relatives' names for preparation of my brother's wedding guests list. By the way, my dad seems very happy and enjoyable with us and family relatives cause he did joined every occasions. My family had a very enjoyable and happiness reunion this year.
CNY just pasted doesn't mean sad thing have to come, but it's happened.
My dad had pasted away just right after. It's very very shock and i don't even can accept it. The day before i had night class till got home already 9pm plus. I had my dinner then my dad came in and fooling with me, i don't have mood to replied him cause someone make my temper. The next day, i woke up in the morning found out that my parent's room door still closing i though maybe my dad not feeling well having a rest, so i don't care then switch on my shower heater and go to bath. After my mom finished laundry get in to her room and realized that he's already no breathing. She came to me and shouted that my dad's got something wrong so i faster got out from bathroom and run to my dad, he's laying on the bed and got some white liquids came out from his mouth. I run to my mom down stair, she's on the phone to my brother sister and i kept calm her down and i make a call to emergency line. Few mins after my uncle came and my brother came back as well. I was thinking that time my dear should be going to college so i don't know either should i call him but finally i did. We're in very emo and don't know what can do except called our closer family. Then my uncle said went out any clinic invite doctor to come over. After that my sister and brother reached home and we're all just stay beside my dad couldn't say anything. No any doctor willing to come then the ambulants reached, suggested that we have to go police station make a report cause they couldn't do anything else.
The pain that hard to understand when nothing to help ur love one. He is my dad! Beside cry seriously heart is painful till nothing to describe it. I can't accept that my dad just left, is my dad. His voice his attitude his actions not longer can hear and see anymore. I still remember if i wake him up in the morning, he will open his eyes look at me and asked "what's happen"(in cantonese), then i will shake his body till he get out from the bed. When i come back home and he's sitting on his table reading newspaper, he will look at me locked the door and turn around face him, then he will asked "where i went, now only come back"(in cantonese). But now onward, it won't happen again. I won't heard his voice, his loud cough again. I won't see he's sitting on his table or in the living room eating again. I don't even have chance again to have breakfast and dinner with him on Sunday. I don't even can hear his laughter voice again when reunion. Till now, i will still crying when i think of him. I don't have a chance to tell him that I love him!
Next, my dad had left a lots thing to be carry on by us from household to his business. It is the time for my brother to proceed my dad's business finally. The most important and difficult thing is financial problem for family and business. Of cause there's also some conflicts we face but we're still staying claim and cooperate together.
I'm worry about my mom even how i wish she can stay strong and cheerful to continue stay with us, continue enjoy the happiness with us.
Jan-Mac 2011 is my last term of diploma holder. Went through final classes till final exam and final practical. On 25th of March is the result announcement, but then it's not what i want cause i just got Honourable Pass only in between 12-24 marks. I understand it cause i didn't did well in practical and didn't gives too much efforts on it due to i don't have the mood to do it well.
So far, i have to plan out probably what i want to do in the future. And so i want to start my career as soon as possible cause i want to reduce my family spending.
Wish me luck guys!!! =)
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Year End Soon
Gonna suck in the exam weeks! It's week 10 and finall assessments!
Calculating failed 2 subjects in the moment, brings down my marks for diploma!
Next year, few more weeks is Term 6 coming soon! Wish hardly is not tough but i don't think so. However i wanna put lots more work on it and bring up my works together always starting my revision of three terms subjects.
Damn sad to getting my diploma!
090910, still remember it ;)~
Almost 3mths+, a million thousand thanks for the giving much to me!
I don't know what to say or what to do else just to repay back but one thing, i have to behave myself which is being violence all the way! Such a very sorry to him a lots! Anyway, he still never scold or angry me!
The other way, he treat me very well! I got no comment about it at all! He will give everything if i want under his limitation!
Eventhough, i have to concern about my family since my mom not so appreciate about me! I have to spend more time with them yet!
Unexpected that i got the right one who caring me much more than myself! I have to try to control myself to being better! As what i promised to myself!
2010 going to end very soon, recently only think wanna do something that i wish to do but not yet done. Anyway, it's not so important in my life but still manage to get it maybe! Finally i went my checked up this month and results proved that both sides got the same thing but it is not serious as what i though! However i decided to take operation will be on next year. First thing to do on the first week of new year and my first time giving out! I'm waiting, I'm worry, I'm scare, I pray hard! It will be my first experience in my life!
I got a listing out! hehe ;P
http://www.facebook.com/?sk=messages#!/note.php?note_id=478392378983
Calculating failed 2 subjects in the moment, brings down my marks for diploma!
Next year, few more weeks is Term 6 coming soon! Wish hardly is not tough but i don't think so. However i wanna put lots more work on it and bring up my works together always starting my revision of three terms subjects.
Damn sad to getting my diploma!
090910, still remember it ;)~
Almost 3mths+, a million thousand thanks for the giving much to me!
I don't know what to say or what to do else just to repay back but one thing, i have to behave myself which is being violence all the way! Such a very sorry to him a lots! Anyway, he still never scold or angry me!
The other way, he treat me very well! I got no comment about it at all! He will give everything if i want under his limitation!
Eventhough, i have to concern about my family since my mom not so appreciate about me! I have to spend more time with them yet!
Unexpected that i got the right one who caring me much more than myself! I have to try to control myself to being better! As what i promised to myself!
2010 going to end very soon, recently only think wanna do something that i wish to do but not yet done. Anyway, it's not so important in my life but still manage to get it maybe! Finally i went my checked up this month and results proved that both sides got the same thing but it is not serious as what i though! However i decided to take operation will be on next year. First thing to do on the first week of new year and my first time giving out! I'm waiting, I'm worry, I'm scare, I pray hard! It will be my first experience in my life!
I got a listing out! hehe ;P
http://www.facebook.com/?sk=messages#!/note.php?note_id=478392378983
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Admit it
I feel great this time!
Last entries i mentioned about something happened and now it's really be true!
That time i remembered that he asked me to stay back til he finished his training and go back KL together. Since i'm already bought ticket to go back on time but i did say yes also to go back penang again. Which mean on the same time i meant to accepted. I remember the way when we going to get it's happened in penang. Thanks a lots that giving me in such a way. I felt some weird in the beginning but he did brings it up afterward and make me feel better. I think i get what i wishing for. I feel that i get respect, loving and caring from him. Even though he may not perfect at all but he will do it best in his way out.
Really thanks for his concern!
Appreciated his understanding!
Appreciated his respecting!
Thanks for his loving and caring!
I did meant it to him!
When i spinning my mind to him i just couldn't stop it, or else i have to get something to do! ;) I feel that's great ever i have from him! I won't take it in the far future but i mean it in the moment right now.
Thanks dear! ~miss~
Last entries i mentioned about something happened and now it's really be true!
That time i remembered that he asked me to stay back til he finished his training and go back KL together. Since i'm already bought ticket to go back on time but i did say yes also to go back penang again. Which mean on the same time i meant to accepted. I remember the way when we going to get it's happened in penang. Thanks a lots that giving me in such a way. I felt some weird in the beginning but he did brings it up afterward and make me feel better. I think i get what i wishing for. I feel that i get respect, loving and caring from him. Even though he may not perfect at all but he will do it best in his way out.
Really thanks for his concern!
Appreciated his understanding!
Appreciated his respecting!
Thanks for his loving and caring!
I did meant it to him!
When i spinning my mind to him i just couldn't stop it, or else i have to get something to do! ;) I feel that's great ever i have from him! I won't take it in the far future but i mean it in the moment right now.
Thanks dear! ~miss~
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
The end of ~P~
I'm stuck now cause feel like not going back yet. Ticket already bought on 14th flight, just right after two days finish training. BUT there's something happened change my mind wanted to stay longer. I don't know...anyway still have to go back also.
It's happen due to outsider already realized that and keep mention it, til i even have to admit it's happen. I pretend to not do any move but he also the same. I have to take the first move again this time. If not i will keep thinking and thinking til my patient limit comes. I told myself want to have this kind of friend but it's turns to over of it. Do i really have to admit and accept he's younger than me...
Now, i'm counting day not because wanna go back soon, is because how many days left here! Just since yesterday he mentioned something that let me feel there's something going to change between us but nothing prove with it.
I'm suffer.......
I'm scare.......
I'm thinking here and there.......
It's happen due to outsider already realized that and keep mention it, til i even have to admit it's happen. I pretend to not do any move but he also the same. I have to take the first move again this time. If not i will keep thinking and thinking til my patient limit comes. I told myself want to have this kind of friend but it's turns to over of it. Do i really have to admit and accept he's younger than me...
Now, i'm counting day not because wanna go back soon, is because how many days left here! Just since yesterday he mentioned something that let me feel there's something going to change between us but nothing prove with it.
I'm suffer.......
I'm scare.......
I'm thinking here and there.......
Monday, September 6, 2010
Life is filling up
Last week to going on yet then i can leaving such a boring place and go back to my home sweet home and *heaven*. My friend is waiting me out there and going to have another gathering again. Mommy will going to take me from the airport then make a surprise to my dearly brother Terry Foo 21th Birthday on the same day im going back. I'm still stuck in my mind about the present to my dearest SooHui as birthday gift. I said will buy a batik to her but even myself also haven get one yet so even for her. Now, have to think about some other gift prepare to her already. If not i have to break the promises to her, she know i won't do that cruel thing to her. ~idea idea~
I'm going to suffer about my luggage cause only one with two bags, how to stuck in all the stuffs that can put it in the garbarge. How ever still have to do it....~haiz~
Last Week, went twice to Sunset Bar beside parkroyal due to Yenny' birthday. MeiYann had a such a hug surprise celebration on Saturday while we had invited to trainee fallware party at Josephine's house. Been prepared a watermelon as a cake with candle on it and give it to her. But then really can't imagine that she can be so crazy. She grab the watermelon with her hand and put it on people's face except me didn't kena of cause. Next i'm going to hide a side and prepare the real cake for her. But couldn't give her cause she was really enjoying with the watermelon til Rachel took it away. She was so scare that i will foolish her again while she preparing to blow the candle. Once she blow the candle, Bryan and Loren took watermelon hiding behind her and put it on her head. Really can't imagine that's so crazy happened there. Next is gaming session that prepared by Truma such a damn stupid game, but i just joined the first section then i escaped from there. Since XoongHua will going to pass by there so i did it successful. MeiYan really had a such happier crazy and memorial birthday celebration this year. Must be an unforgetable to her! After all, me and Xoonghua hanging at mamak and chatting then comes up a call to go Sunset bar again. So did we went again til 2am this time, the next day we both really like collapse again. Tired like hell, slept straight after worked and til almost late at night only woke up. If he didn't call me up i think i won't wake up....haha
Last week to spend here so will take time and enjoy it til the end & going back happily. Wait for me Terry Foo Jasmine Mommy and all my dearest and lovely family! ;)
I'm going to suffer about my luggage cause only one with two bags, how to stuck in all the stuffs that can put it in the garbarge. How ever still have to do it....~haiz~
Last Week, went twice to Sunset Bar beside parkroyal due to Yenny' birthday. MeiYann had a such a hug surprise celebration on Saturday while we had invited to trainee fallware party at Josephine's house. Been prepared a watermelon as a cake with candle on it and give it to her. But then really can't imagine that she can be so crazy. She grab the watermelon with her hand and put it on people's face except me didn't kena of cause. Next i'm going to hide a side and prepare the real cake for her. But couldn't give her cause she was really enjoying with the watermelon til Rachel took it away. She was so scare that i will foolish her again while she preparing to blow the candle. Once she blow the candle, Bryan and Loren took watermelon hiding behind her and put it on her head. Really can't imagine that's so crazy happened there. Next is gaming session that prepared by Truma such a damn stupid game, but i just joined the first section then i escaped from there. Since XoongHua will going to pass by there so i did it successful. MeiYan really had a such happier crazy and memorial birthday celebration this year. Must be an unforgetable to her! After all, me and Xoonghua hanging at mamak and chatting then comes up a call to go Sunset bar again. So did we went again til 2am this time, the next day we both really like collapse again. Tired like hell, slept straight after worked and til almost late at night only woke up. If he didn't call me up i think i won't wake up....haha
Last week to spend here so will take time and enjoy it til the end & going back happily. Wait for me Terry Foo Jasmine Mommy and all my dearest and lovely family! ;)
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
~P~
It's been a quiet of long time never ever blog new entry. Just cause of time killing me a lots. Since last time i was collapse and stand up again, it's gave me a lots inspire. No matter how and what happen i still have to admit it all the way.
Now move to penang quiet a period time already, from the beginning til now it's going better. Thanks god! First week i forced to went through all alone in the house. Second week, knew some of them from DC and get to mix with them. Til i knew XoongHua, we're became closer. Offs, movies, shopping together every week, almost everyday went out dinner and explore penang street again and again. Just want to say we're like half of penang people, almost every movies we also watched but sad for me no Step Up 3D available in Penang. Since i knew Bryan til all of them, just wanted to say only XoongHua will remember me cause we have the same consensus. But what people look through of us just not a right.
After i changed to being operator, colleagues there mentioned to me that Bryan is my bf, i was kept laughing. If i got this such bf i better live all alone. After that, Vincent they all even my housemates though i'm goes to XoongHua, can people stop a mind about a girl and guy together doesn't really mean is a couple. It's just two of them can really mix up and being a good friends. What we did is close the eyes to them and being what we are. Anyway, i'm glad to know XoongHua here, make my life in penang is not that bad.
Two weeks more, i will be going back my home sweet home very soon. Then next is family trip to PD. Purposely go back early just cause the trip. ~Cheers~
Now move to penang quiet a period time already, from the beginning til now it's going better. Thanks god! First week i forced to went through all alone in the house. Second week, knew some of them from DC and get to mix with them. Til i knew XoongHua, we're became closer. Offs, movies, shopping together every week, almost everyday went out dinner and explore penang street again and again. Just want to say we're like half of penang people, almost every movies we also watched but sad for me no Step Up 3D available in Penang. Since i knew Bryan til all of them, just wanted to say only XoongHua will remember me cause we have the same consensus. But what people look through of us just not a right.
After i changed to being operator, colleagues there mentioned to me that Bryan is my bf, i was kept laughing. If i got this such bf i better live all alone. After that, Vincent they all even my housemates though i'm goes to XoongHua, can people stop a mind about a girl and guy together doesn't really mean is a couple. It's just two of them can really mix up and being a good friends. What we did is close the eyes to them and being what we are. Anyway, i'm glad to know XoongHua here, make my life in penang is not that bad.
Two weeks more, i will be going back my home sweet home very soon. Then next is family trip to PD. Purposely go back early just cause the trip. ~Cheers~
Sunday, May 30, 2010
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