Staff Relation

Since i worked for 3 months plus there, i'm very happy that i knew Irene, VYen, and my jiejie-Elva cause they really nice peoples and treat me as beloved friend. 20th was my last day stay in elken so they treated me at Zenri for dinner as my farewell. The food is quiet nice and we enjoyed it as well. I'm very appreciated all the things they gave include the gifts. It is no regret to knew them.
Next to this, mostly i want to talk is a newest staff in our dept. Since he was worked till the date, i seldom contact with him cause I'm busy my own thing to finish up before my last day. Cause lunch time and the annual dinner stuff let we know each other. I can felt that he treated me is different from he treating other ladies. He would make chance to talk with me and asked for something. Firstly i though had make thing wrong but when the thing comes continuously then i realized it's nothing wrong. At his birthday party at home, i even my colleagues also think that girl is his gf seem his friend was talked about they both so i though i had make things wrong of what i had felt. Until the day on annual dinner, he seriously mentioned to me that he's single and available when VYen talked his girl. He was very serious and honesty to told me that, I wonder to know why but actually i guess it. Monday is his birthday, actually i had nothing for him but seem others gift for him so i plan something but reality is not as what i planed. That day i had lunch with VYen, Elva so after then we share and bought a cake to celebrate at office for him. We prepared everything secretly, Elva asked me to hold everything so i got to prepared the cake once they had ready. I don't think he was surprise but happy for that. Actually i think it's normal and memorable cause first time birthday celebrated i enjoyed in office. He suck like very appreciated and guess i'm the one to organized for him (actually not only me lo). I found out something in facebook that make sure that he's chasing me>>my name appeared in his profile's note before added me in friend list. In FaceBook i can knew something already but i don't even go and do anything cause all of it was never comes up from his mouth or even an actual action, just i guess and feel only. All the way, i just open and blink one eye, don't bother anything there. On my last day, i was just talked with Karen after i settle up all my cases then goes in to Vyen and Elva till off time then went to Zenri. Before i leave he would give a hug with me but i felt like uncomfortable cause i feel like before make thing clear better behave lo!! The next day, he sms me around lunch time, said that he miss me, im not there not happy la, wanna see me such like that la...and also asked me friday night free or not but after no reply already. In this few days he never mentioned about friday jogaya dinner (that 38 had told me in facebook but it's a surprise, since he told already also no surprise liao lo...damn stupid and 38 wan). Until thursday night he just asked me free or not but never deal for a date or else, seems he's like busy than me. I seems like so excited but lastly it not that realistic! Seriously, i was give a chance but he's not fully trusted cause i still have some retention of him.
Last friday night, VYen meet me went to republic with Irene and Elva, he also will join. VYen told me jacky said that if i'm not going he also won't go so ok la...i heard that then i told VYen since he was like that then ask him to fetch me lo. I don't know what time to meet or he come so i just wait for him to inform me but around 6pm he told me that he cannot go cause have something to do so nvm i had to go myself. I called VYen twice but she never picked up call then just wait she call back. Irene called me after 7.30pm, she though i'm on the way but i was still at home dinner also haven take yet. She said VYen asked to meet at 8pm then i got to quickly take my dinner and prepare even make up also didnt make then go off. Reached there 8.30pm then meet Irene went to Haegen-Daze (don't know right or not la) wait for VYen and Elva. We got to Republic before 10pm cause happy hour, but there have no peoples le quiet static the situation. We still can enjoy cause the musics played is nice. We got ordered four jug of beer. Since i got drive so i must behave myself...no good but no choice!! Irene met her friends there then seat together but i felt dislike with them so doesn't bother them. Nicholas appeared after not longer, our mood is getting fun then...dance, play, chat. The bad things comes up...he suddenly appeared when i looked back at a time. I felt a bit shocked then look to VYen wonder how come he was there but no one know that. Nicholas was seat beside me (actually V asked to do that, i guess V should know whats going on de just i don't know only) said that's my bf i wanna blame him liao...haha. Of cause he's not come to me, go to talked with VYen and Elva. I don't bother him just keep talk with Nicholas. Then after he comes to me and regard few words with me, i didn't talk much with him. After 5 mins he goes off, i don't know what happen la he also didn't mentioned anything with me. We realized the few guys keep drink with us of cause we didn't bother so much...V seems improper so ask me, Nicholas and Elva go away and take action to go off the place. Nicholas was working at coco banana so he got to leave first then me and Elva. I'm the first to back home then Irene, V and Elva went to coco awhile. Really spoiled my mood lo...how come he can like that wan, said cannot go but suddenly appear. It's doesn't matter but the problems is he was at coco with his friends, that called 'got something to do'. It was disappointed me at all. This guy already decrease his marks.
Luckily I'm with Vyen, Irene and Elva, if not i gonna to drive off. They really very good lo, will know what I'm think and comfort me all the time.

Bad Mood....

Today working normal as usual. In the afternoon, i heard that have to get the door gift of annual dinner. So usually never miss up...when my am get the call then asked me and two colleague going to down stair hr to pick up the gift. I just went there then saw hr executive was arraging there, then she saw me and pick my dept gift that already arranged by them. Suddenly she told me that i'm not suppose to have the gift but she'll gave two box of the Spirulina cracker biskuit! When i heard that damn piece off, peoples from other dept was there le...damn losing face...damn stupid $%^$*. I'm going to get the door gift but i'm not entered! please la...first i'm really want go off liao but since my colleague is new if not i won't to appear there! How come i'm able to stay OT and working for them so hardworking...three months closing also that le but not entered for that! If not my senior and am asked me to attend the annual dinner, i'm preparing to leave before closing liao! Now giving me this kind of things..bullshit! Really unhappy lo feel like don't want to attend the annual dinner also. Since i going back thinking about that i had no mood already but i still keep quiet do nothing and continue my work. My colleague>Karen looked at me she still comfort me. Thanks Karen even she won't to view my blog! Please myself to not angry and crying, i keep doing my work settle all the cases and forget about it! Finally, before off my am knew it and asked me that then ask me go to take hers if i'm need it but finally i didn't! I'm really really appreciated my AM that so kind and caring, and also my colleague Karen feel pity to me. Anyway, i'm feel better that i have a new colleague. Thanks you so much for them!
When i'm going back feel like wanna giving vent to the mood. I'm still remember last two monday not feeling happy so got my brother's car, drove out from Puchong>Bukit Jalil>Seremban Highway>Federal Highway>LDP>back to Puchong! I don't know why and how to explain about it, just know i'm did it and felt better after. I bought Mc'D at LDP's toll and took it back to home and enjoy. Haha...today i'm feeling that but didn't did the same thing cause i'm drove different car and that time is prosperous time of traffic so can't do that. I'm realized now, when i'm going in the bad or unhappy mood, this is the way to give vent to the mood! If like before, i'll going to giving vent to my mom or scolding with her. Every word also doesn't like to heard and acceptable! Maybe i'm changing now.
Just now, calvin was accepted friends in facebook of mine, then SP want to know what is in open it up and see...then going to hurt myself. Actually i'm still care and mind about it. Normally when i saw it suppose to have nothing to jealous but today i'm did it again. Maybe i'm not really to give it up, but i'm told myself 'he is not again with me as anything' seems its that is a reality. Sometime i think i'll be ok but finally i'm not. Just i'm lie to myself or force my mind to forget it. Got anyway to do it better??!!! I had tried just it's not fully to give it up??!! Can anyone to tell me or teach me how...... I don't know how many time i got to hurt myself again and again, don't know when only can stop it happen on me! I always have no answer to myself!

Wishing List in 2009

A new year, A new beginning. I'm very appreciated this word while every new year coming, but i had just in normal mood to welcoming new year, never have excited or anticipation for the new coming year. Anyway, i'm still wishing for the new year will be more wonderful and meaningful! It's also greet to anyone of them in my mind & soul!
I'm create a bit different in this year. First, i wish my hope can be successful and smooth in reality. Second, i wish any happening will be a happy and joyful and no sadness to allow(just try the best la wont every moment also never sad)...haha!! Third, i will need to create a wishing gift or something that i wish to get in this year cause when the time to think what i want or some people may ask most fully willing to not remember that much, so this listing will be more easier to know...haha. It's smart or too careful...self-respect!! Below is my listing start up...

~new phone with higher mega pixels (wish to change phone for a few years ago)
*looking for now is SE C902i
~canon digital ixus 800IS (my lovely camera that lose)
~sunglasses (i wish for so long already still haven get one)
~Bag, Purse (since is taken by force by robber, til now haven get the new yet)
~Necklace, Bracelet, Earrings (better it's come with set)


It is arrange by the most favorite be the first. Will be always update once i get some new stuff.
If any friends had take note on this i will be very happy!

Stay tune!