Today working normal as usual. In the afternoon, i heard that have to get the door gift of annual dinner. So usually never miss up...when my am get the call then asked me and two colleague going to down stair hr to pick up the gift. I just went there then saw hr executive was arraging there, then she saw me and pick my dept gift that already arranged by them. Suddenly she told me that i'm not suppose to have the gift but she'll gave two box of the Spirulina cracker biskuit! When i heard that damn piece off, peoples from other dept was there le...damn losing face...damn stupid $%^$*. I'm going to get the door gift but i'm not entered! please la...first i'm really want go off liao but since my colleague is new if not i won't to appear there! How come i'm able to stay OT and working for them so hardworking...three months closing also that le but not entered for that! If not my senior and am asked me to attend the annual dinner, i'm preparing to leave before closing liao! Now giving me this kind of things..bullshit! Really unhappy lo feel like don't want to attend the annual dinner also. Since i going back thinking about that i had no mood already but i still keep quiet do nothing and continue my work. My colleague>Karen looked at me she still comfort me. Thanks Karen even she won't to view my blog! Please myself to not angry and crying, i keep doing my work settle all the cases and forget about it! Finally, before off my am knew it and asked me that then ask me go to take hers if i'm need it but finally i didn't! I'm really really appreciated my AM that so kind and caring, and also my colleague Karen feel pity to me. Anyway, i'm feel better that i have a new colleague. Thanks you so much for them!
When i'm going back feel like wanna giving vent to the mood. I'm still remember last two monday not feeling happy so got my brother's car, drove out from Puchong>Bukit Jalil>Seremban Highway>Federal Highway>LDP>back to Puchong! I don't know why and how to explain about it, just know i'm did it and felt better after. I bought Mc'D at LDP's toll and took it back to home and enjoy. Haha...today i'm feeling that but didn't did the same thing cause i'm drove different car and that time is prosperous time of traffic so can't do that. I'm realized now, when i'm going in the bad or unhappy mood, this is the way to give vent to the mood! If like before, i'll going to giving vent to my mom or scolding with her. Every word also doesn't like to heard and acceptable! Maybe i'm changing now.
Just now, calvin was accepted friends in facebook of mine, then SP want to know what is in open it up and see...then going to hurt myself. Actually i'm still care and mind about it. Normally when i saw it suppose to have nothing to jealous but today i'm did it again. Maybe i'm not really to give it up, but i'm told myself 'he is not again with me as anything' seems its that is a reality. Sometime i think i'll be ok but finally i'm not. Just i'm lie to myself or force my mind to forget it. Got anyway to do it better??!!! I had tried just it's not fully to give it up??!! Can anyone to tell me or teach me how...... I don't know how many time i got to hurt myself again and again, don't know when only can stop it happen on me! I always have no answer to myself!
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